What They Dont Know, I'm a Damn Good Actress Too..
People who meet me or at least, thought that they knew me, would describe me as happy,lucky and the one people would admired.
But the sad truth is, I knew none of the thoughts are true. I rarely show my real feelings, most of them are hidden under a convincing facade. I could even cover my eyes with my hand..smiling and laughing while tears streaming down without them noticing that I was sad.
My family would never guessed that I am capable of being this depressed. Because I always potrayed a happy, problem-free daughter. Maybe because I believed that I am loved by them. Or at least so. I will never reveal the darker side of me to anyone from my family, because..I want them to be happy with me. To not worry about a thing about me. I wanted to stay that way.
Only few of my close friends know who I really am.But that doesn't mean they knew everything about me either.
I guess this is the result of self-hatred & the anxiety of people hating the real me..;(