I Think Before I Speak

So many times, I've wished that I could speak my mind, and people would understand. There are one or two people to whom I can speak my mind, but I am not with them that often. And even from them, I have my secrets.

With nearly everyone, I have to watch what I say, so that I don't offend them. Damn political correctness. Either that, or I have to limit what I say and do to what won't scare them or confuse them. And then, of course, there's a good chunk of people who I really don't want to talk to at all, because we're too different, and I can't help but feel as though I couldn't have an intelligent conversation with them.

Yet there are others, who I get along well with, who I'm comfortable with. But I just don't have the right connection with them, and still have to watch what I say so that it doesn't become awkward.

All the while, although it sometimes gets lonely, I'm glad that nobody really knows me. I don't want anyone to have to suffer through my issues with me. And I like having a part of me that nobody will ever know. It's almost like a diary, locked and stored in my soul, with a key that nobody can find unless I show them where it is.

qforconfused qforconfused
18-21, F
Feb 17, 2010