As I Look In The Mirror

Everyday I wake up wondering how many people really know the man I look at in the mirror?  I am the man man in the mirror, and  most people look up to me as a great dad, good husband,  community leader and all around likeable man.  But what they don't know is the the dark side of the man in the mirror.  You see I am also an adulter!   I cheat on my wife because I have lived in a sexless marraige for months now.  I have only cheated twice, but all it takes is one time with  another women to be an adulter.  What I see in in the mirrir is a very hurt and confused man.  I am searching my heart and soul, I am grasping for my faith in God, but yet I can't seem to stop wanting to be with the woman I have cheated with again.  The crazy thing is, I do love my wife, but my sexual needs have over taken me and that is the man I have become.

Tim1966 Tim1966
41-45, M
1 Response Feb 17, 2010

Its difficult in a sex free relationship. You crave the closeness and the intimacy which is just missing.