I Am Not Your Stereotypical Anything

Very Strange.

By: Konrad

Written on May 17th, 2009

I was taking the subway in Philadelphia and this man walked on high as a kite. He told me I looked sad, even when I am happy, because I have a sad soul. He told me he felt sorry for me. I was nearly speechless.

I think people keep their distance because they sense I'm going through the motions. I'm very introverted, but also have strong opinions and I can be stubborn. It's just not a good mix. People's first impression of me is almost always negative.

I come off as fake and stiff, unusually formal, and cold. I'm really passionate and expressive, but no one can see that in an everyday setting. It's left undiscovered to the people I work around every day.

I hate talking to people because it's such a chore- I'll read their body language and halfway through the conversation I realise they recognize we're on different wave lengths.

I'm just...very strange. Unless I'm around my fiance, his happiness is infectious, and we can be really entertaining together.

By: Konrad

Age: 22-25 , Male

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9 responses

MorphAble

Alas poor Konrad, it is not over yet.

You need help to deal with this. Contact a survivors suppot group and .....adress the issues, at least begin too.

I support you!

Oct 8, 2010
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acidite

I feel like I can really relate to this, it's almost kind of scary. But nonetheless, you can take comfort in knowing that there are others out there that feel the same way, that is detached and unrelated to society. I could not have expressed that any better...kudos.

Apr 20, 2010
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ferina

beautifully true,pals.. :) cant say anything better,,because you have all said he best! :D

Dec 28, 2009
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Vancity89

Your story would make a great song ;)

Dec 21, 2009
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isthisunhealthy

I had a really erily similar situation except I was at a party at a freinds house and a beutifull older woman told me I was the saddest woman she had ever seen holding a glass of champagne even though I was smiling and looking content. I asked her why she thought that and she told me the world was full of love and then left with some other people. I think she was right on both accounts I have spent to much time being sad I have learned to be myself around people and to get what I can out of the smallest relationships and feel love for people ...however ****** they can be at times. Ihave finaly found happyness through my sinicicm and it is amazing the relief I feel! words dont describe the unwavering burdon of lonlyness!

love is hapyness freind

hope it goes better for you

Dec 7, 2009
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Helena2012

I've been like this my entire life. You are lucky to be able to keep a relationship.

Nov 8, 2009
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Somerandomchick

I could have written this myself. Except I've never been on a subway. Nor have a fiance.

Aug 23, 2009
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june1999

Ugh, I hate it when people assume things about me and then act on those assumptions.

You know how they'd ask if I'm fine and I am totally fine which I tell them and then they get pretty sensitive about how I answer shortly and start accusing me of being in denial... la la la. What a waste of time and breath.

I don't know about strange but I sure do like you, K! :) Passionate and expressive and honest.

May 17, 2009
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NiteMich

I like that you recognise that other peoples first impression of you is usually negative!

Let's be honest, it's human nature to jump to a conclusion, yet the majority of us all feel that others have the wrong impression of us in one way or another.

If we take the time to get to know one another, then we will most always be happilly surprised.... If we don't, then good for you in not bothering to humour them - but remember, other's may feel that you misjudge them also :o)

May 17, 2009
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