But That's a Motivator....

well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i DON'T want to be that. i don't want to drive away all the great ppl in my life. my 'rents don't have many friends, for many reasons within their control. its so frustrating watching them live their life like that. i don't like to think about where i would be if it hadnt been for my friends.

a big personality flaw i have is that i am very unforgiving at times. it takes a quite bit to make me angry, but i don't forgive or forget easily when it happens. i do know that this could be my downfall. that's where my fear comes in. what if, what if....

so in saying that, it motivates me to open up, become closer to pp, be nicer, more helpful and loveable. to keep from being that future me, i do everything i can to keep loved ones around. it's a tricky line to walk, if you want to be yourself at the same time...

BowsAndBones BowsAndBones
18-21, F
1 Response Jun 23, 2007

At least you recognize your faults so there is hope for improvement. Hang in there, focus on the more forgiving person that you would like to be. Just realise that no one is perfect. We all make mistakes and grow from them.