Some Days

Yeah, I know. I'm the one always joining the "I-Wish-I-Wasn't-Fat" groups on EP. And I am the one who refuses to date because of her weight. And I am the one who loathes shopping for clothes because of my fat and weird body. Yep, the same girl who does all that just created this group.

Because some days... like today... I really don't care that I am overweight. I mean, it isn't too healthy, and I definitely feel better when I am slimmer, but I am not *always* a big fat ball of self-hate, like it may seem. Sometimes I like my belly. Sometimes I like the way I fill out clothing. Sometimes I like how chubby my cheeks are when I smile. Sometimes I wish I was even fatter in certain areas, like my thighs and butt, because I happen to find pear-shaped girls incredible sexy. Sometimes I am comforted by my weight. Tonight I spent time with people who don't care about weight, and it was so refreshing... I didn't think about my body even once, and I was not self-conscious in the least.

Anyway, it's not all the time that I feel this way, but I thought I'd go ahead and write about it while it lasts. :)
SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
36-40, F
5 Responses Jan 8, 2012

I think i'll let shrek marry you but he is right about one thing, Yuu ARE beautiful!

hi, shrek not joking when i said what i said.the offer still holds.xoxoxoxoxoxoxoox.the green guy.

I think we all go through those times when we are more and less accepting of ourselves and the way we look..but the most important thing is to not put your life on hold until you reach a pre-conceived notion of what you think you should look like..which I know can be hard..especially dating.. because if your not comfortable with yourself it makes it very hard for anyone else to be comfortable with you as well..but those are mental barriers that need to be's important to always be climbing that mountain but you shouldn't feel like you have to do it alone until you reach the summit. And I don't think I can say it better then Shrek so eloquently put it.."you are totally freakin hottt!" :P..and I'm not just throwing a quarter in the compliment pool, haha.

you are totally freakin hottt!will you marry me ,please?????You'd make one fine looking wife and mom.SWeetie, you are too beautiful 4 words.Why would you complain about what u look like?you are positively beautiful! whhat's wrong?truth hurts?

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You have lovely legs!