I Feel Like A Burden...I started hemodialysis at age 21. Polycystic Kidney Disease caused my kidneys to fail. I remember how scared I was in the beginning and how tough I acted after a couple of months. I used to laugh about it, because I knew people wouldn't like me if I behaved any differently.
I find it hard. It takes up so much time and it severely limits me in my life. I see people my age go abroad for a long journey, go drinking at a club and just doing everything that they want to do. And I can't be a part of that.
With everything that I can't do, I feel like people see me as a burden. It's always to and from dialysis, watching a diet and vacations in the area. It's not the same with me. Sometimes I really think of disappearing into thin air so I don't bother anyone anymore.