I Think I Probably Take Too Much Medication.
Yeah, I was just put on Abilify in addition to Remeron and Wellbutrin and Depakote and Valium and Restoril and Methadone and Ritalin! I cannot even for a second entertain the possibility of getting pregnant (not that I want to). I started the Abilify yesterday and felt surreal and my antidepressants were upped. I'm NOT depressed though and it's only been one day! Finally, I have some relief. I was in such mental anguish before yesterday that I was swallowing Valium, Methadone, and Tylenol PMs like crazy. It's all crazy and definitely out-of -hand. One day I know I'm going to have to learn coping skills (I'm already 32) that aren't centered around pills. I look at other people who are afraid of taking meds and can't imagine what it must be like to see the world from that point of view. Well, I'm told counseling is the key to my freedom srom from meds and I've had a go at counseling many times but something always happens like I'll lose my insurance or won't like the therapist but maybe I put some of these obstacles in my way because I'm afraid of facing the things that are at the heart of my suffering. Like I cannot look my troubles in the eye.