My Sexuality

I have needed to be more open about my sexuality. Not to the world but to me. Things have been missing in my life. It took a lot for me to even come out to myself because of the views of ones I love, my family and dear friends. I tried my best to be straight and to be happy with that, but I couldn't. Seeing my cousin, my best friend come out as being gay was something else. I mean it wasn't a surprise that he was but family was still upset because of it. I hadn't told a soul to anyone that I was a lesbian at the time. I couldn't. I had watched my cousin and watched his example. Through him I was able to be more open and even comfortable with myself that I was gay. Since then I have been out to my family and friends. But I have still missed something in my sexuality, a missing piece of a mystery.
I have found it through a dear friend, she has helped me realize what was missing and what is my destiny. Not just my sexuality but what I am suppose to do with it. I feel whole, complete. It is a amazing feeling to find something so right for you. I couldn't have done it without her and her great insight and knowledge, she is amazing to me and I could not have done it with out her. I'm in debt to her and her gift to me.
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Jan 9, 2013