My Blobby Life.

i have always been the term "thick" as my family says but i know i am fat and there is no way to sugar coat it.

I have always had my homer simpson belly and lumpy thighs.

My mom recently lost about 50 lbs she is now 150lbs she has a gorgeous body and she lost the weight so fast. i look at my mom and want cry.

i have tried to starve myself and puke but i can never puke or go through with no eating. I am surrounded by unhealthy food and skinny people. i just want to be beautiful. i envy them. being in high school and not being skinny is upsetting. i fear i wont ever be able to experience feeling beautiful.

i am 5 ft 7 and i weigh 248 lbs. this is me at my highest and i cant get down
when i was in 5th grade i weighed more than my grandma when she was pregnant with my dad. i was 130lbs. my cousins teased me. but now no one even looks my way

i have a boyfriend who is skinny and when i stand next to him i feel even worse because he is gorgeous and i am lumpy. he is my height and weighs as much as my mom. don't see why or how he is with me. i am praying to be one of the beautiful people one day.
kyleesmiley kyleesmiley
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 1, 2012

You sound beautiful to me! :)