I'd Like to Loose This Weight, But Magically (without Any Real Effort).
At my best, I have still been chubby. After having 2 children, I am stuck at 207 pounds. Sometimes I feel like it's not that bad- especially since obesity is common in my family. But other times, I look at myself in the mirror naked and am mortified. The thinest I can ever remember being was probably somewhere around 140. I was anorexic and weak and got very ill. I went from being so paranoid about my body to being married and so secure and comfortable that I have gotten lazy. I don't feel motivated to diet and excersize at all- I think it's because I'm just so worn out from taking care of the kids and the house and so excersise is just another chore. I do want to look more attractive for my husband, but he is so accepting of me and loves me and thinks I'm beautiful no matter what- so there is really no real motivation there. I do want to be healthy and look good, but I'm so lazy! And I can't stop eating. I know my portions are ridiculous and I get my medicinal chocolate / ice cream fixes far too often. I want to stop, but can't seem to commit to the change. I wish I could afford at least a gym membership- somewhere I could go to just get focused and not be distracted by everything in my house. I really think that Iwould have fun going to a gym and enjoy my time alone and that the pounds would just slowly melt off while I was focused on fun instead of just obsessing about my weight.