Newcomer? If There Is Such A Thing?

Hello everyone. I'm currently 14, 15 in a few months time (YES!) and a few... Well, you could say days ago I found out my sexuality. Always, I've never had problems with gays or lesbians or bisexuals or any other sexuality there could be. I found I could be attracted to anyone. And I will admit, it's a little scary. I kind of want to tell my school friends, but when they talk about sexuality it's always to shun either known lesbians or gay people in our year. I never joined in these conversations, standing true to my belief that as long as they were okay with it, I was okay with it. Because, in all honesty, whether they are of a different sexuality to me doesn't actually affect me. I found so many flaws in all their arguments, but I kept quiet because I knew they would just label as being 'one of them' and never see me the same way.

Now that I know I'm different to them, I want to tell them, and I don't want to tell them. I want to tell them, because I believe that they deserve to know, as my friends, and that they might take a different view point of sexuality of someone they were close to turned out to be pansexual. However, I don't want to tell them because it might irreparably damage our relationship, and I don't want that, and that they might slowly drive me out of the circle of friends, and I don't want that either. Right now, I still haven't told them. Personally, I don't think it's a big deal. I've spoken with known lesbians and bisexuals in my year, and they're pretty funny and generally nice people (although they are a bit open about their sexual relations. I don't really need to know that about them) but my friends always seem to avoid them, deeming it because of their personality, when I have a nagging suspicion it's because of their sexuality. It's a complicated matter.

Anyway, I just really needed to tell someone and not have to worry about their reaction. We're all on the same boat here, aren't we? Personally, I'm just glad to have a label that finally fits, nice and snug. It's like a blanket, rather than iron shackles. I'll happily enter a relationship with girls or boys, as long as they are okay with it. I'll happily be with a transgender person if I knew I loved them.

Love has no restrictions. It's practically the only thing in this world that doesn't. Thank you.
SarahCatt SarahCatt
1 Response May 18, 2012

Hey I read your story, obviously! Friends are difficult at our age because not many people have come out yet, and there are so many people who are against them. <br />
True friends are hard to find and I'm lucky enough to have one. I found, your true friends are the ones that stick with you wether you are gay straight bi pans or other. If you tell your friends and they don't accept you, then they don't deserve you! Only come out when you're comfortable with it! :)