I Am Paranoid

When I am walking through hallways at school, I can feel people's eyes burning into me, judging my every flaw. I don't look at them. I just know. And every single time somebody laughs, I feel they are laughing at me.

When I change after the shower, I feel like there is a camera in my room. I always hide behind the towel when I change, even with the door locked.

When someone complements me, I feel like they are being sarcastic or they just want me to feel better because I'm shy and pathetic.

I can't even use the computer without being paranoid that the employees at Google are laughing their heads off at everything I search, thinking about what a freak I am. I know they store everything you google so I'm really paranoid about that.

Everything makes me paranoid. I'm just an anxious person. I know there are people who are MUCH more paranoid than me so I'm a bit grateful for that.
SadAntelope SadAntelope
13-15, F
2 Responses Jan 20, 2013

Sweetie, it sounds like you have social anxiety. I used to think I was absolutely bonkers until I realized it was just social anxiety making me suspicious of everyone.
It's ok to get help.

That's exactly how I feel. Everything you said from the corridors to using the computer. I'm kind of glad I'm not the only one that feels like that.