I Love People But They Terrify Me.
I love being with people. I love socializing. I love going to parties and I love making friends.
It's always the day after I do something outgoing that i freak out. a friend and i will hang out, the next day i wonder if they like me anymore or if they were taking pity on me. the absolute worst is when i'm seeing someone. i am in CONSTANT FEAR of break up. i will reassure myself and tell myself that the guy likes me, there are no signs whatsoever from him that would entail that he wants to break up, yet i am always frightened that he will be over me the day after a date, scared that i did something that scared him off.
and then of course we break up. but it isn't the break up that's the end of the world for me so much as this horrible feeling of failing.
i'm losing my mind.