Secrets

I keep a lot of big secrets from people in my life and I wonder if they would realize who I am if they stumbled upon my page here. I wonder this a lot.. perhaps too much for my own good. I'm so paranoid that I will be discovered that I take extra steps to prevent one from finding EP through my particular computer.. but really, I don't want anyone to know what I do online, period. I disable history altogether and don't bookmark anything that might reveal something that I intend to hide.

And I know, I shouldn't have to hide certain things like my sexuality for example.. but I'm also far too paranoid to come clean to anyone that I have the slightest doubts over, which is every single close friend and family member. I pick apart conversations and experiences with them all the time and just keep finding more and more reasons to keep certain things to myself. It's exaggerated and over-analyzed usually, but that doesn't comfort me at all.. worst case scenario for someone like me just seems more likely the longer you dwell on it.
wtfwolf wtfwolf
18-21, M
2 Responses Feb 17, 2010

Do not join problems humg in their

there are some things that some people simply don't need to know. most of my friends have no idea about most of who i am. hang in there bud, we're all in the same boat :)