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I'm So Tired Of Struggling

 I have been poor my whole life. In a nation as wealthy as America, i often feel like i don't fit in. My friends will say things like, "i'm so broke," while they have $4,000 in their savings account and parents who will hand them cash whenever they want it. Everything i see, read, or hear about is geared towards the middle or upper classes. The working poor are simply ignored.

I moved out on my own at 16 years old due to a bad family situation. I had to drop out of school to do it. I have been working full-time pretty much ever since. At 25, i went back to school, as i felt it was my only way out. I'm still there, at 28, entirely on loans and very small grants. Although i go the most inexpensive school in my area, I worry constantly about the debt i'm accumulating (it will be around $30,000 when all's said and done). 

I have, at times, resorting to selling my possessions to buy food, and even once, to buy Christmas gifts for my niece. I resorted to much, much worse when i was between 16 and 18, and couldn't legally work without a work permit, which my mother refused to sign.

Being so broke often compromises my ideals. Any clothes that i can afford are made in sweatshops. I want to buy organic and ethically produced foods, but i have to buy whatever is on sale, generic, or i have a coupon for. There's no room for ideals in my checkbook.

My husband and i both work and go to school full-time. I have the happiest marriage you could ever hope for, and the only thing we ever fight about is money. I had to switch to part-time work this year in order to stay in school. I make about $100 a week. This doesn't even cover groceries for myself, my husband, and our pets.

We live paycheck to paycheck. My teeth are rotting out of my head but i can't afford dental care. I have not had health insurance for 12 years. We just had to go on government health care. I never thought i would be here, at 28, on welfare. I'm doing all the right things, but it never gets better. My husband and i are waiting to have kids until we are financially ready, and who knows if that will ever happen. In order to be responsible, and stay on birth control, i have to have annual gyno exams. My last one cost $775. When the clinic worker told me that if i paid up front i could get a discount, making my exam around $425. When I told her i didn't have $400 in my bank account, she said, "Can't you use mom's credit card?" like it was the most normal question in the world. 

I'm tired. I'm tired of taking the bus. I'm tired of fighting over $30 purchases. I'm tired of worrying. 

I'm tired of struggling just to get by. 

Update: 11/8/13
Thanks to everyone who commented. I appreciate your kind words and shared stories. It's important that these kinds of stories are shared. People need to realize the severity of the problem we as country are facing. 

Well, it's been 4 years since I posted this story and a lot has changed. I'm still happily married and still have my pets (and we're fostering a baby stray right now, too!). I graduated college at the top of my class (4.0 GPA!) after working, doing an unpaid internship, and volunteering while attending school. It was a very hard time but I got through it. 

We moved out of state and I'm working at a non-profit and making $38,000 a year, which is a lot of money to me. The job is stressful and tough, but it pays the bills. The cost of living is very high here, so that salary doesn't go far. Our rent is $1,100 a month (not a great place or neighborhood, either) and my student loan payments are $360 a month. I won't even get into utilities! BUT, things are still better. I have health insurance! I had my teeth fixed! And my furbabies eat the best quality food. I am happy. I don't have much expendable income, but I also don't have to constantly balance the checkbook down to the penny anymore, which is a GIANT weight off my shoulders. 

Things sometimes get better, but they also sometimes get worse, despite doing all the right things. I realize that everything is temporary, and I'm not getting too used to comfort. I do think the US does a terrible job of looking after our poor and working class. The assumption that these people are just lazy and have all the latest high-tech gadgets and just prioritize badly is flat out WRONG. Calling things like doctor visits "frivolous expenses" is just as wrong. Working class people in this country need job security, a living wage, and the ability to retire with dignity. That is not asking much.

At one point in time in this country, you could support a family of 4 with a factory job. That is not the case anymore. It's time we look at what has caused this change and reverse it. Working people should not have to resort to welfare. Not here. Not ever. 

Sending positive thoughts to all those who commented and those who are also fighting to keep your head above water. I hope the winds change in your favor and you don't have to struggle anymore. Hang in there <3 




 

Mistletoe10 Mistletoe10 26-30, F 108 Responses Nov 17, 2009

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Good luck, everyone :)

Whoa!!!!! I am literally sitting her crying out of frustration and I google out of desperation and stumbled upon this pretty amazing!
Literally, my story, only we have 4 kids (blended family). The struggle feels unbearable at times. Every time it seems like it's gonna get better, something else happens. Not a stitch of saving, can hardly (well, we really can't make it from one week to the next) it's who can we get an advance from, who is still willing to loan us $ (nobody) my husband is a teacher, can't support your family in a very modest lifestyle on that anymore.all 5 of us are in a 2 bedroom part , sharing 1 car. I'm crying and feeling very helpless and hopeless. I'm worried about the future of my children with our American government today...

Well: I came from a POOR family. I borrowed and put myself through university. It took seven years of education, bartending while attending school full time, and massive debt to pay off afterwards, but now I'M doing fine , thank you very much. Me; I got tired of being poor and helpless. and feeling sorry for myself. Boo hoo, life handed me lemons. I decided It would not be easy, but if I didn't do something for myself nobody else would.

MY PARENTS ARE POOR WE ALWAYS ATE 3 TIMES A WEEK AND IT OCCURED IN THE EVENING HOURS AND I HAVE SAT THE WASSCE EXAMINATION BUT MY PARENT CANT AFFORD UNIVERSITY FEES WE ARE STRUGGLING

MY PARENTS ARE POOR WE ALWAYS ATE 3 TIMES A WEEK AND IT OCCURED IN THE EVENING HOURS AND I HAVE SAT THE WASSCE EXAMINATION BUT MY PARENT CANT AFFORD UNIVERSITY FEES WE ARE STRUGGLING

MY PARENTS ARE POOR WE ALWAYS ATE 3 TIMES A WEEK AND IT OCCURED IN THE EVENING HOURS AND I HAVE SAT THE WASSCE EXAMINATION BUT MY PARENT CANT AFFORD UNIVERSITY FEES WE ARE STRUGGLING

MY PARENTS ARE POOR WE ALWAYS ATE 3 TIMES A WEEK AND IT OCCURED IN THE EVENING HOURS AND I HAVE SAT THE WASSCE EXAMINATION BUT MY PARENT CANT AFFORD UNIVERSITY FEES WE ARE STRUGGLING

MY PARENTS ARE POOR WE ALWAYS ATE 3 TIMES A WEEK AND IT OCCURED IN THE EVENING HOURS AND I HAVE SAT THE WASSCE EXAMINATION BUT MY PARENT CANT AFFORD UNIVERSITY FEES WE ARE STRUGGLING

im poor too i wear the same clothes everyday and at the same time i live with 5 people in 1 house plus my babygirl i recently had on the 11th of june and i tried applying for jobs all over my local city but noone wants to hire me and theyr are times that my babygirl has to go without and my fiance doesnt know what to do we tried even selling stuff online but nobody wants to buy what we have so we struggle alot also like everyday we wake up with no food to eat and we also worry about what were going to have for dinner everyday and then we also have problems with money cause we have to pay for other peoples bills and food too and im tired of it .''

I know EXACTLY how you feel! :( First of all, I want to say congratulations on your success. I know how hard school is and for you to have struggled with all that and still get a 4.0 is just an incredible feat you should always be so proud of yourself for!!! Seriously! Anyways, I can so relate to your story because I happened to be born into a welfare family with a single parent mother (she was hit by a semi-truck when I was only seven years old and ever since she has been on welfare). Even though I never expected to be able to afford college, I was able to graduate with my AA (with honors) and I just graduated from a State school with my BA (not 4.0 but 3.5 GPA!!) I was fortunate enough to have some emotional (but not financial) support from my fiance, my grandparents and my fiance's parents. However, now I have $15K in debt. Where I live in California, I just calculated that you would need over 5x the minimum wage to afford a decent apartment (outside the extremely dangerous areas). My fiance has a job in San Francisco and we tried moving out on that salary but we were unable to find a safe place to live even just renting out a single room (most people refuse to rent to couples too fyi) so we were forced to move back in with my grandparents. I'm extremely thankful that they let us move back in but I feel extremely guilty that we had to ask them to do it because I feel at 25 I should be able to afford a decent place to live after graduating University. I am still looking for a job but I haven't been hired yet and the added stress isn't helping. Reading your post really helped me (more than you could ever know) because I am living everyday day to day because I am so ashamed of myself, and I really do think a lot of it boils down to the economy and no cap on rent prices that are at the true root of the problem, but I don't want to be someone who makes excuses for myself. I feel like we are trying to do everything we can (doing everything right) and we are still so behind what was expected of us by now. We are even putting off getting married because we want to be able to get married and have a place to go other than my grandparents house, plus we will have to pay for the entire wedding as neither of our families plan on contributing at all to any wedding expenses. This had made me not even want to look at wedding plans because we can barely afford food. I also have two younger sisters who are doing even worse off because they haven't even gotten through any sort of upper education and are either living at home with my mother (on welfare) or in a half-way house because they have mental illness issues (which runs in my family). I feel so sad and as the oldest sibling I feel a need to look after and nurture my sisters too, so I end up spending more time/energy/money on them than I can honestly afford too. My fiance has been amazing throughout all of this and is my only true best friend, but obviously even he is stressed. He is trying to emotionally AND financially support me while I am still struggling to find a job and I feel bad that its the first time since I left my mom's house that I can't even support myself with basic things like food. We only ever fight about money, and we are living paycheck to paycheck just to pay for basic expenses like food, toiletries, cellphone bills and some rent to my grandparents, but we have no savings to speak of. My personal bank account has less than $100. I say this only because I need to say it to anyone who will listen, because I am so desperately at the end of my rope I am starting to lose hope. I have dreamed for so long to have my own place to call my own (growing up my parents would always taunt me with "when you are 18 you can do anything that you want" only to grow up to 25 and everyday have it ingrained that that was such a lie). I have barely enjoyed a minute of my life because I've spend so much time longing after something that seems to just be a thing of the past - having a car, a house, a family, and a stable job all by the time you are 25. I know from reading online that I'm not the only one who is struggling with these things it just makes me so sad the pain is almost paralyzing. Like you said, I'm just so tired of struggling. I'm so sick and tired of trying to do all the right things and it never being good enough. It has effected my self esteem so much that it is taking every muscle in my body right now not to just give up and do something horrible and irreversible to myself. I've struggled with depression (for which I cannot afford any sort of therapy or medication) and I've often had suicidal thoughts. I have never gotten to the point of acting on these (thank God!) but the sad reality is that they are there. They creep in and are determined to defeat me. I'm trying so hard not to let them win. :'(

Yeah I know how you feel. I have been broke all of my life, too. I started college over ten years ago online because my work schedule wouldn't allow me to take classes on campus. I only need six classes to get my bachelors degree, but I don't have the money to finish it because I have maxed out my financial aid. So i'm still working in the same factory with dramatic co workers. I owe everybody and their grandma. My student loans with interest have accumulated to nearly $80,000 over the past 7 years since I stopped going to school. I have had to put my loans in forbearance, get income based payment plans and everything. I live paycheck to paycheck.

It just sucks being broke. I tried to use my education and money from my income tax refund to start an online business. That was a flop, a waste of time, and a serious waste of my money. It is so discouraging, especially when you really put forth an effort to do the right thing to earn a living, and all you end up doing is just scraping the bottom of the barrel.

To make matters worse, we just got a raise at work, just to find out that our insurance premiums have almost doubled per week. It just seems like we just can not get ahead no matter what.


I know your pain. I have a husband and three kids of my own. Hopefully one day things will get better.

Wow . I know what you mean. Im 57. I work in a factory. I make 40,0000 a year. divorce . single income . Even at 40,000 Im still classified as part of the poor . Im also tired of struggling. I want to retire in 9 years. But most likely won't happened.

Glad things worked out for yall. Im only 21 and been living on my own since 16 also, my mom acts like im not her child just cause i look like my dad and her husband doesn't like me and all my dad does is date girls my age and party. It really sucks not having anyone to go to when things get bad. I cry everyday an pray to god to send me some type of miracle but sometimes i feel like hes not listening at all cause things just seem to get harder and harder by the day. I had a baby at 18 which was the most uncosiderent choice of my life cause now she has to sit here with me and suffer this thing i call life. I hate it cause she doesn't deserve this. I just wish things would change or i can just die. I dont know what to do anymore and it sucks.

I really hateto hear the stories about people doing all the "right" things (go to school, get an education, get a job) and still they're living week to week. If there was a way to have financial freedom or at the very least bring in some extra money, would you be open? There is another way!!!

Sounds exactly like my life, except college never happened. From high school to working, working, working to get by. College was never quite within reach, so....
We send so much aid to other countries & ignore our own who sure could use a boost to get on the road to "middle class," but don't, keeping many of us stuck in the proverbial poor house. How about helping our own first & send what's left to other countries? Seems to me we (US) do too much opposite of what we should be doing.

I am very happy things worked out for you, and I too needed to read your great turn around story. I am also broke, I am married to a beautiful woman and we have four perfect little boys, their ages are 7, 6, 3 and 1, I got injured at work three years ago and I didn't kno at the time that I could file for workmans comp so I just went with the flow, we'll three months after my injury, I developed serious back pain and sciatica. I had to be rushed to the hospital for an emergency surgery. After my surgery I called my boss about workmans comp and he said it was to late. Well he was lying and I never got it, a few months later I had to have another surgery and it didn't work either so I filed for disability and got turned down my first time and didn't know I could reapply till about a year and a half ago so I did and got turned down again even though their doctor said I couldn't work ever again so now I have a lawyer and I am hoping it works out because my wife has to wor and she is only making about 900$ a month and for a family of 6 that isn't near enough wit school and everything else, needless to say me and my wife have been very depressed with all that has happened and I don't like seeing her that way because she is the most beautiful and perfect soulmate a man can ask for. I would appreciate all the prayers I could get right now in this trying time. Thank you for listening .

i can relate to your story im married and have kids to support and yet im not eligible for help . i live paycheck to paycheck , sometimes i feel that im bad luck walking . I would like to go back to school yet i cant afford to . between bills, food, school uniform, and lots of car problems it seems like i get no where. i dont know how people do it , they can help when they dont need it and the people that do seems to be the ones that are not help worthy. I have no credit and cant even get help with that to even build up. no matter what i try it seems to me that when something good happens i take a few weeks step back .

I am so glad that it is working out for you. You are a very strong person.Most people in your shoes would have learned to accept failure or start doing drugs and get into that dark black hole. I am 25 now with a bachelors in business and feel lost and broke, but I am thankful that the internet allows for people like me to read stories like yours and get motivated by them. Be strong and positive always and at the very least you would have said that you tried. Life is never what we expect it to be unless we draw our own path that makes us happy by way of action.

I really hateto hear the stories about people doing all the "right" things (going to school to get an education and a job) and still they're living week to week. If there was a way to have financial freedom or at the very least bring in some extra money, would you be open? There is another way!!!

I will feel it and response

I love that you updated this story. It is nice to hear things turned around for you! I am struggling right now as a single mom of a teenager and I feel like all I do is work to pay the bills and sleep so I can get up the next day and do it all over again! Yippee!

I really hate to hear the stories about people doing all the "right" things (go to school, get an education, get a job) and still living week to week. If there was a way to have financial freedom or at the very least bring in some extra money, would you be open? There is another way!!!

Right now I'm sipping a nice glass of Gin,
And you're so poor you haven't got a pot to **** in!

Is that meant to help?

I didn't think I'd meet people like you on here. You're a total A$$hole.

I agree fully with what u said lol what a jerk

Agree! We're all just thrilled to hear how speshul you are. Keep sipping that gin,Karma will take care of you.

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I truly have hit rock bottom myself. I am fully capable of working, but cannot get a job to save my life. My vehicle is in arrears, my house is in arrears, the mortgage company refuses to reduce the interest on my home, & the Obama reduced mortgage help is a joke. I have now become completely depressed, as I know that it us a matter of time before I am homeless. I keep asking & praying to the good Lord for help, but I have lost all sense of hope. I am happy you found your way out, I hope I make it out before I sadly say that I have had enough & just bring it all to an end. No healthcare, no job security, no means if transportation , I have truly lost all hope as of now.

I can relate, i feel like i am drowning and cant reach the surfac most days. Please don't give up though. I know that on the sunniest days it can even still feel dark and cloudy, but just remember everything that is beautiful about life. Remember your best friend from childhood, or your first trip to the theater. Or perhaps your family :) i know that giving up sounds easier, but paddling to the surface is much more rewarding. Someday you will have gotten past all of this and see it as a thing of the past. Cheer up

Prayers going up for you & everyone else struggling.

I am an 18 year old girl and I am homeless, effectively. I couch surf from the few friends still in state cause most of them went off to colleges. My parents kicked me out at 18 because "you're a woman now". I receive no money or support from them. I can't get aid for school because technically FASFA doesn't recognize you independent from parents till age 24. They base aid off parent income and my parents make enough to not get any aid. But I don't live with them and I have no money for even community college. It's not like they kicked me out for being bad. I don't do drugs, never stayed out past 9( mostly cause it wasn't allowed) and I had all As and Bs in high school. I was a Girl Scout!!! I can't even get a job though. I've applied everywhere, over 300 jobs and still haven't gotten hired. Low level places tell me I'm over qualified ad higher level positions require a degree. What am I to do? Federal aid only lasts for 3 months for those without a job. I've done everything right and had everything wrong happen to me. I have no family other than my parents and the lowest rent in Howard county md is 800 dollars a month!! No homeless shelters anywhere close, no soup kitchen anywhere close, no public transportation for ten miles! What am I to do? The only reason I'm on a computer is because my boyfriends mom let me borrow hers but I'm not allowed to stay here much longer. Is there no mercy? Looks like I'll be homeless forever

I can't join military either due to a health issue. So that's not an option

You should look into Job Corps. It is a free training program for 16-24 year olds that provides housing, food, vocational training, help getting your drivers license if you need it and they give you a stipend every two weeks and a decent sum of money at the end to get you started. There are Job Corps centers in most states. call (800) 733-JOBS if you are interested. Good luck!

girl im so sorry...I live in Maryland also and I know how expensive Howard County is. I wish I could help u but I am in a similar position.

I am 26 and though I am a 3.75 + GPA student with no debt I am only able to afford school by starving myself during the semester and keeping only two lights on at a time in my apartment and never using heating or cooling during extreme weather.

I live in low income housing, small town slum lords, I can't find a job, I can't afford a car, I can't get experience because I can't find a job, and I am leeching off my parents to survive, and I may have to stop going to the doctor, therapist, or chiropractor due to losing my father's insurance coverage soon. I already stopped going to the dentist due to it, and I need invisalign for my teeth but hey that won't be an issue with school starting next month and me not going to be able to afford food for 4 months.

The only positive is I have a disability that qualifies me for assistance, but I hate being forced to live off the system and as hard as I try to get a job it never seems to work out.
My last interview was two months ago it was my first in 5 years, I was not hired due to being too outgoing and too energetic..ironic considering at my last interview I was considered too introverted.

I am a fully trained coffee barista but no local places will hire me, no car so I can't go outside of town and as for public transit it's the USA kids we have no working dependable public transit and I can't afford to live in the city by my campus because the cost is too high.


I can't afford a normal college social life, my only positive is when I am in school because other than that it is back to the small town with no job. I try to distract myself but deep down I know I am a failure, my younger sibling has gone farther than I have in life already and he has more worth too. I am honestly considering stripping for an income at this point, I don't have the body right now but after that 4 months I will..after all desperate times call for desperate measures.

I could write my books but..I should really but honestly right now at this moment while I type this I feel completely and utterly worthless as if I am nothing but a drain on the world. That might change tommorow but that is then and this is now, the worst part is I am not from a poor family so I am under tons of pressure to get a job and succeed..of course getting a job in the first place is near impossible right now.

Oh well again, that is why stripping exists.

I'm 24 and feel so horribly depressed because I'm in your before situation, but also kinda different. I work retail making about 7.50 an hour after taxes. My boyfriend works with me and we only see each other at work for 5 min when I go to cover his break or maybe twice a month, because he lives 45 min away and just can't afford the gas to come see me. He was a sergeant in the millitary for 4 years and now all he can get is a job in retail. Yeah the government really cares about the people who serve our country. I've needed my wisdome teeth removed for 3 years but can't afford it and have no dental insurance. I've tried to go to school, but I get no financial aid. I'm scared to take out loans. I'm renting a room for $400 a month which includes everything, from a 35 year old co worker who has 3 kids: an 11 year old boy with ADHD whom I always want to strangle, a 12 year old girl and and a 16 year old girl who's face never leaves her smartphone. My boyfriend can never spend the night because she doesn't want her kids thinking that's okay before marriage (so in turn I have to live like I'm one of her kids at 24) and they always try to get me to go to their cult church. Yet she sells pills from her home in front of her children, pops them and lays in bed all day and just yells at them. But she won't let me medicate with cannabis for my anxiety and depression (I have a medical card for it and everything. I refuse to take pills), because that's a bad drug. But popping pills in front of your kids is totally fine apparently. I just had to return hangers that I needed for my closet so my bank account wouldn't over draft. I hate my job, customers are self entitled ******** who call me names all day when they don't get their way. I hate where I live. I can't afford my own place and my boyfriend and I aren't ready to live together. We've only been together since May I'm about done with my life, I swear. I'm either crying and pitifully sad or angry every day.

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It sounds tough and I wont take credit from all your effort but you are still lucky. In other countries if you move out as a teenager its almost impossible to make a decent living, no way. <br />
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I live in Guatemala and a big percentage of our population live in extreme poverty, its so cruel you could not believe it.

I thought I was the only one in a similar situation like yours. Parent's who don't really care or are into themselves. I don't know why society expects young people like us to graduate high school and suddenly be able to support ourselves, and I don't know why society assumes that every parent or family is this supportive type of structure.

We can't. Sometimes the parents don't want to help and the oh-well attitude from society is disgusting on top of disgusting. Yet this country seems all out in arms to help foreigners and people who don't even live in America. Billions and Trillions of dollars going overseas to countries who will never pay it back and have no intention of doing so. Billions that go to some dictator or tyrant's economy overseas.

It defiantly doesn't make sense from both a patriotic and economical point of view. How is bailing people out from Mexico and the Middle-East helping struggling students like us? It doesn't, but kills our economy.

I work a puny minimum-wage job that does not offer any livable wages. I'm struggling to pay bills, and it has become an increasing financial burden upon me. I had to switch my other job that paid a little $200 in total due to jerks and bullying that made it a toxic environment to work at. I'm already $3,000 dollars in debt and I don't want to add more to the pile. My paycheck only grants me a total of $112 for two weeks and it's a flexible job, meaning, they can change the hours I work on a whim. Every paycheck I make is literally going to paying bills and $10 set aside for 'groceries'. However, this new job seems to be 10x than the last one I was at, and I am actually treated like an employee than some tempo lowbie on the ladder like the last job.

I'm already short $5 on a bill that's coming up on Monday, which of course, has sent me into a panic. What will happen is that the bank will charge me an overdraft fee, then an "extended" overdraft fee or decline the transaction. There seems to be no relief and everyone is exploiting the working poor.

I have cavities in my mouth that I can't afford to pay for, and a gap where a tooth had once been for over 2 years.

I'm just really bothered by this. How can someone go through school, get good grade averages only to come out on jobs that aren't supportive enough for their needs. On top of it I have an aggressive relative who has threatened me twice of being homeless if they are not kept happy over any little thing, and find it in their routine daily to wake me up at midnight with their screaming or constant harassment that spans up to two days to an entire week.

I've been neglected of getting my driver's license in my teens and the only reason why I have a permit is because I pushed for it by studying for the test and taking the exam when I was 21. But because of this I'm having to walk almost everywhere I go, because of my lack of driving experience. It is a total inconvenience and because of sometimes I can't get to where I need to go.

I have never drank, never smoke, never gotten into drugs and am not a trouble-making type of person. Apparently though, this is not enough. I wish the school-systems would have taught us better both financially and independent wise of what really awaited us once we turned 18, instead of these fantasies with "good paying jobs". Well, where are the good-paying jobs, and why is it so difficult for students with 4.0 averages to find these good-paying jobs.

Hoping i'm not going homeless in the up-coming months...

I am very sorry...I am going through something similar to yours and I feel encouraged that I am not the only one going through this.

I am so glad I stumbled across this page and read every response. it's July 2014 and I am 35. In two months I'll be 36. I've had some life struggles in the past two years but I'm in no shape like the rest of u. I guess I have been very lucky or I am an extremely cheerful and optimistic person. I had a $50,000 job at a university and because I was sexually harassed I decided two leave that job and go back to my former contract Job at the University for 15 an hour... that's a $20,000 pay cut. roughly at the same time the guy I was dating got married to somebody out of the blue that caused me a lot of psychological damage. Then my dad had died then the guy I dated who got married tried to come back and have an affair... for a short period Of time I believed him when he was telling me a different story about how hard his life was but luckily I listened to my gut. Then I had my two best friends die in the month following. That was a year and a half ago. I am still without a permanent job so therefore I still make $15 an hour and I have no health insurance..... I do you take meds regularly so I have to pay for that out of pocket. I have applied for many jobs and have gotten many interviews however it's always somebody with more experience that beats me out. And the kicker is I'm an assistant to the Associate Dean and if I was able to be hired I would be making 60000 but the state is on a hiring freeze. So I have a very good job, very good title but very very low paid that is unfair and should be illegal. Now I live in the best part of the city however I am behind on my rent but my landlord has been amazing. I do not own a bed or a couch.... I sleep on an air mattress and in the winter when my heat wasn't working properly.... I was too embarrassed to have the contractors work on my apartment as I had nothing in here so I literally slept On my bathroom floor where there was heat coming up from the radiator. There have been days where I've had literally not even one penny, there been days when I literally had not one thing to eat. I have bad credit, I cannot take out a credit card so luckily I don't have any credit card debt however I did borrow money from basically loan sharks and I cannot pay them back. I am very scared to see how much I will Owe in future. My health is going down my mental wellbeing has gone down I'm tired. Yes, a lot of it is mind over matter, I can tell myself that I'm happy in till I believe it, but alot of it as also poor nutrition and not having enough of my meds everyday. There are times when I have to go to Walmart and buy 22 cents worth of Roman noodles.... because I only had pocket change. I do not have a car; its a hundred dollars for the public transportation a month. I do not have any pets. I do not go to any salon to get my hair done I go to the students so my haircut and hair color is only 25 and that's about every 6 months. I have not been to a sit down restaurant in a very very long time. And yes I'm a thief I have stolen toilet paper I have stolen plastic knives and forks if I should go to Chipotle or something trust me I have learned how to scam them. I might say a water but then go get a coke or I might say I've only had One chicken when I really had two. I mean I'm going there and spending $2.25 on a scoop of chicken because that's all the money I have. I do have electricity however I never put in my name so I'm almost always in the dark I don't use the stove I very rarely use the microwave... again I'm being a thief and scamming the system. I know life would be so much easier if I had a boyfriend and I would love one however I don't even look like myself due to the poor nutrition, I'm embarrassed. My whole situation has caused me great embarrassment and humiliation. I did try to speak with the powers at be about my boss sexually harassing me and nothing happened so its a situation that was absolutely out of my control and no I wasn't going to sit there and have my bra being taken off by my boss so I can make $50000 a year. I rather have made the $15 an hour and know that I wasn't going to be attacked. Fairness and equality is a great slogan but you will be met with lawyers after lawyers and challenge after challenge, it's going to affect you mentally. It's easier to simply walk away. I have my family, they are well taken care of. I have friends back home they're well taken care of. I have friends that I have met thru college and throughout work life that are well taken care of, but then again there's other people who are struggling just like I am. I know we're not supposed to compare yourself to others ut I can't help it and im so embarrassed that you know my ex boyfriends have great jobs, a lot of money, cars, houses. Now they are married and their lives are being taken care of. I am saying the same thing that everybody else is saying. I did everything I was told to do. i have a Masters, I have good work ethic. in my twenties I worked for the same company for 7 years and now recently In my 30's I've been at the same company for 3 years. its bullshit I do a $60000 job and only get paid $15 an hour, no benefits. truly my heart is with you all but I really do hope every one of us can pull through and make a life affects us

These little idiots are complaining about poor....Yet they do nothing about it. I grew up on a family OF 4....YES 4 on 20k INCOME..But do you know what I did. One day when my sister was no longer part of the household(Shes attending NYU)...The food stamps were dropped and I was scared out of mind of starving.And I never wanted to experience it again. So I worked hard and I now attend NYU on a full ride like my sister... And now getting my first internship at goldman sachs(26 dollars a hour as freshman graduate).i networked with my fraternity and my school. And now I am living the american dream.All you guys are still sitting around and not networking one bit in the job market

You're extremely judgemental and seemingly pretty arrogant, but your grammar is really poor by NYU standards...

Actually, reading your post again, your grammar is far below any college's standards.

I don't know how old this is, but I go to GSU. I work a full time job in commercial plumbing, and only make $12/hour. I'm literally broke. Even with student loans I'm in debt and it grows every month. Point being, I'm 22 and do hard physical labor. This is my third week of college as a freshman, and I can say that what he wrote is disturbing. I doubt even a young child would have grammar that poor. I was also enlisted in the Marine Corp so me being a jarhead might be considered dumber than the average person. My particular set of skills disposing of people doesn't translate into a civilian life. So tl;dr.

I'm broke as ****, don't have a college degree, but my alphabet soup makes better sentences than that fucktard.

How nice for you. Hard to get to a college or "network " like many who live in rural areas in poor families & no way (ever hear of transportation?) to get anywhere . I've seen many braggers who lose everything.

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