FROM VIRGIN to CELIBATE

Well, I have only ever had sex just once in my life. It was alright. I'm not going to go into details of my first time.

But I just don't feel like having sex again. I want to, but I just keep thinking of the first guy that I did it to. He was good. I mean, REALLY good in that area.

We only had sex once. It was on a whim. My friend kept telling me that I was going to end up alone with 67 cats and I was also tired of being a virgin. And I did tell myself that I would lose my virginity sometime this year. So I did it.

Lol. I wasn't even drunk or anything. I'd just did it.

But I kept blowing the dude off afterwards. He was cool and everything, but I am just not in the part of my life where I want to date guys and have relationships and have sex.

Don't get me wrong. I do want to have sex. But I can't because I am still hung up on the last dude. And I don't think that I will find any other guy who I like as much. But the guy knew what to do and he didn't skip a beat. I don't know if I'll find someone like that again.

So I'm practicing celibacy. Yeah, I've finally had sex. But it's going to probably take me another year just to do it again.
FraizBlu FraizBlu
22-25, F
Aug 17, 2014