Miscarriage and Four Months Later, Pregnant

I'm scared to put it bluntly. I don't want to lose this one. I'm worried things will go wrong, I'm worried so much about everything.

I miscarried at 6 weeks, and it devastated me. I wanted the baby so badly. It was to be my first. I don't think thats something I will ever forget. Now I'm pregnant again. We started trying and here it is. I took my test this morning and there is the BFP. It was very faint. I wasn't sure it was there at all, but it was.
I think I will take another test just to be sure. I want to keep seeing positives, I want to feel like this is it.
I don't though. I feel like I'm not even pregnant. I have no symptoms, I have nothing except a missed period. It doesn't feel real to me. I think I'm just afraid it is real, and that I'll lose it.

I handed the test to my fiancee. He didn't look super thrilled or anything and it made me sad. I think he feels the same way I do. I think he's afraid to get attached, just to have it taken from us again.

I wish I could be happy for us. I wish I could enjoy this, and really accept this pregnancy.
But it's so worrisome to do. The last time, it was all that was on my mind. I ate healthy, I took my vitamins, I did everything I was supposed to do and I lost it.
I just want our baby in our arms.
stumpedinlove stumpedinlove
18-21, F
5 Responses Jun 22, 2007

I understand what you are going through. I had a m/c last April. It wasn't a planned pregnancy. We were so thrilled and excited. I was feeling deserving of this beautiful experience and was taking it in very nicely. Felt privileged and almost like I was touched by God. <br />
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Unfortunately, it didn't stick. Now, this time, it seems to be alright. But I'm at 9 weeks pregnant, I still feel scared, cautious, sad and unhappy. I don't know if I'm still living the pain of the first loss, if I'm just scared to be happy, scared to be disappointed or maybe even just doubting my capabilities... All I know is this pregnancy is not getting all the attention it deserves and it makes me even more sad to think about it. I felt so hurt to lose the previous pregnancy. I felt like faith had tricked me. Maybe I just can't get over it. Although I thought I had...<br />
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I'm sad and lonely. This isn't how it's supposed to be.

Accept it and plan and be happy and eat and rest right. God helps you and relax because if you worry you coulod lose it like i have. Love Jo

I do not if my comment will help, but know you are not alone. I, obviously, have had this experience. Missed miscarriage in June 2010 and was devastated. How could I not know? We are 8 weeks pregnant and have heard our heartbeat. I am so anxious I can barely function normally. I feel like this time I have even more to lose since we heard a heartbeat! I do not know what to tell you to do...one day at a time, try to be optimistic, etc. These are are all just words until we have had a positive experience. I am hoping that both of our pregnancies turn out beautiful and that in just a short period of time we will have babies in out arms....<br />
thinking of you...

I know how you feel, I also had a miscarriage about 5 months ago and am now pregnant again. I did everything right the first time too, but we still lost our baby. I'm hoping your pregnancy and mine stick this time. It's our turn to be happy moms. Thinking of you.

I was in a similar situation. I lost my second pregnancy and can relate to how you feel. Take one day at a time and all will go well. Congrats and good luck.