Baby On Board
I started dating a man that I had known from highschool, we never talked before. We ran in different crowds. Last year he found me on facebook and a dating website. We started dating and things were AMAZING. I knew he had 2 kids from his previous relationship, so I broke my number one rule. Never date a man with kids. He was wonderful with me and his kids.
My family lives on the other side of the country, so I went there for Christmas. And when I came back, I noticed a change in his actions. I didn't question it at first. After finding another womans panties in his shower, and seeing his car parked outside of his ex's house at 4 am....it was way passed over.
Almost 2 months after breaking-up, I became very sick and had missed my period. I'm pregnant. I called him to tell him and learned that he had gotten back with his ex. But he said that he would be there. I admit he's driven me to a few appointments and helped me move. But since breaking up with his ex again, and finding a new girlfriend, he's been MIA. I told him at the beginning that he was either in or out, that he can't be a part-time father. Just like I can't be a part-time mother. We never had plans to get back together, but my father was very "in and out" of my life and I don't want that for my baby.
Anyway, I'm alone and pregnant. And it looks like I'm going to be doing this by myself. Everyday I look at my sons bedroom and think "how the hell am I supposed to do this?" No woman ever dreams of being a single mother, especially if the title applies before the baby is even born. I'm 7 months along, 8 next week, and due mid-November. I just feel like I've already failed him.