Please Don't Judge Me - My StoryMy name's Sophie, I'm 14 years old. Please don't judge me or hate me for this, all hate will be deleted and I'll block you from my account. It's taken a lot of confidence for me to tell everyone this so please don't read my story if you aren't interested, thank you.
These past few months I've been all over the place emotionally and a lot has happened. I've done too many things that I regret these past few months, too many things to explain here. I've lost everything that meant a lot to me, including my family and friends. The only person I can trust is my amazing boyfriend. He's stayed by my side the whole time and hasn't left me for one minute, he means the world to me. I love him to pieces.
People started calling me stuff. I was called all sorts of names including ***** and ****. I started believing what they were saying because emotionally I didn't have a clue what was going all the time. I didn't know what to do any more so I turned to self harming. I started to cut my arms and legs. My mind was all blocked up, I didn't know what I was doing.
My friends left me, my family started talking about me behind my back to the neighbours and I felt really alone, like nobody cared about me anymore. One of the lads took advantage of the fact I didn't know what I was doing and got me pregnant. I'm just over two months pregnant. I don't know who it was that did this to me but it was then when I started to slit my wrists. It was sexual abuse from someone I didn't know that got me pregnant.
I knew I had to tell my boyfriend so I went over to his house and when he answered the doors, I just flung myself into his arms and burst into tears. He took me up to his bedroom and sat me on the bed. He sat down next to me and cuddled me, asking what was wrong. I told him everything. That I didn't know what I was doing, that I had been self harming and that I was pregnant with someone else's baby. I expected him to hit me and kick me out, but he didn't. He gave me a big hug and kissed me, telling me everything will be okay.
I've stopped slitting my wrists thanks to my gorgeous boyfriend, he's saved my life. If it wasn't for him, I'd have killed myself. He was the only thing worth living for, but he meant too much to me. I knew I couldn't leave him behind, the last thing I wanted to do was drag him down with me. He's stayed by my side the whole time and he's the most amazing boyfriend a girl could wish for. He's going to be an amazing dad and he means the world to me and the baby.
That's my story. Please don't judge me, you don't know everything about me. You don't know who I am. To judge somebody you need to know them. I can tell you one thing though. I'm going to be the most amazing mum in the world. I'm going to raise this child myself and make sure they don't make the same stupid mistakes I have done. I don't want them to ruin their life like I did.