8 Weeks, 1 Day

Back in April I had been feeling a little under the weather, and it got really bad on my way to work. I had gotten up early and had breakfast at one of my favorite diners. I ate my normal thing, but I just couldn't keep it down. I got the suspicion I was pregnant, and the whole hour drive to work I was freaking out. I bought a pregnancy test once I got into NOLA, and took it in the bathroom at work. It was one of the tensest 3 minutes of my life. That little tiny hourglass ticked away and my heart must have been beating 5 times faster than it. I looked away for a few seconds, and when I looked back the little window said "Pregnant." I got dizzy, and had a huge flood of emotions. Excitement, fear, dread, confusion, and serenity.

I was on the Pill and have been with my boyfriend for over a year, so I expected that I would be horrified. And for a little while, I was horrified. How could this happen to me? I thought. I talk ed to my sister about it and we worked through how I was feeling about it. I found myself looking up pregnancy diets, looking up the day-by-day development charts, signing up for pregnancy websites. I knew that I had already made my mind up. I was scared to tell my boyfriend. The last time I told a man I was pregnant (I didn't keep it) it ended very poorly for me. It was mostly unreasonable fear, but I put off telling my boyfriend for 2 weeks. I avoided him and I'm pretty sure he thought I was going to break up with him. He was thrilled at the news, and we've been riding waves of euphoria and waves of nervousness. We've already gotten a surprising amount of finances together, and we have a few leads on some houses. I know it's still early, but I can't help but get excited! I love laying in bed with my boyfriend snuggled up to me with his hand on my belly.
adventureolive adventureolive
22-25, F
2 Responses May 24, 2012

I found out in march I was expecting its amazing and I have not felt the best lately the whole stomach cramps and nausea not what I felt with my other two im ten weeks as of today but hoping for a girl

I'm 10 weeks as of yesterday, I think. My morning sickness has been awful.

Congratulations to all three of you! I'm so glad you're both excited--and I'm sure the new little one can feel your excitement. Good luck house hunting, that should be fun also. And I have to say that's an incredible avi you've got. :D

Thank you :) Although house hunting hasn't exactly been fun.