My Story!

 My name is Alessandra! I have just very recently found out i was pregnant! I already Have a 2 year old son Maddox. I had Maddox when i was in high school and promised myself i wouldnt have another baby until ready. Well i am now married and am having a baby. Im a little nervous about having another baby because my first was really bad and i dont know if i can do that again, I had a lot of pregnancy problems with Maddox and im afraid that it will happen again. I wonder to my self if i can handle another baby. Having Maddox and going to school is hard enough. My husband is in the military and is stationed in Germany most of the year. I really want him to be there for the birth. I cant have another baby by my self. I get emotional a lot and sometimes have really hard times being pregnant and my husband not being home a bunch. But i feel like this pregnancy will be a new experience witht the love of my life.
Does anyone know some ways to tell if you are having a boy or a girl before the doctor can?? :) I hope i didnt rabble on with my story!