Pregnant After Loss

My husband and I found out this past Tuesday that we were pregnant for the third time... as exciting as this should be, I am having an incredible mixture of emotions. You see, both my first and second pregnancy ended in miscarriage...the first in August 2011 and the second in March 2012. I underwent testing and it was determined that there is nothing intrinsically wrong with me, my husband is fine, and those 2 miscarriages occurred for completely natural reasons. Not that that makes it easier, but it is somewhat comforting to know that there is hope. And now the hope is here and I'm unsure how to feel about it. I'm 5 weeks along and I know that the next 6-7 weeks while I'm in my first trimester are going to be filled with a lot of trepidation and cautious excitement. I feel different this time... I'm feeling more symptoms, breast tenderness, intense nausea, fatigue, so I want to think very desperately that this time is different; however, I can't help but be scared. I have shared my miscarriage stories in the group "I Had a Miscarriage" so I won't go on and on about those experiences here; however, I did want to share my excitement and anxiety and get some feedback if possible if anyone else has had a similar experience to mine. Here's to hoping that this pregnancy ends in pure joy and excitement!!!
aubrey814 aubrey814
26-30, F
2 Responses Sep 8, 2012

Congrats..i had a miscarriage once and im pregnant going through what u going through now...very scared and anxious. I really do want this baby

Thank you!! I am happy to say that I had a healthy baby boy last April. I hope you have happiness throughout this pregnancy and that your baby is healthy! It is a very scary and anxiety ridden process after miscarriage and I had a hard time realizing that I was really going to have a baby, but he is here and he's great! Thank you for your comment :)

Congratulations! and when I say this, I have to tell you I have been there and it doesnt sound nice when you have so much fear over past experiences but we need to learn to accept it. I remember being very skeptical when my doctor congratulated me and today at 25 weeks of pregnancy, I keep on thinking how precious those words were, although my state of mind didnt accept them back then. Lets think positive I hear it works lol!!!!

Thank you so much! The power of positive thinking is very strong. I hit my 9 week mark this week and my husband and I got to see our baby's heartbeat on the ultrasound. It feels so surreal. I feel like this time will be different, but there is still a lot of apprehension and fear. I am taking things one day at a time and being grateful for where I am today and hoping that where I am tomorrow will bring cause for celebration.