I'm Finally Pregnant After 4 Years!
When my husband and I wanted to try for a baby after 2 years of marriage I was diagnosed with PCOS. I went through 4 years of emotional while taking infertility treatment. Every time someone got pregnant I was sad that I couldn't be a mother and my husband couldn't be a father. It would make me angry that society didn't take infertility serious enough and it made me angry ever time I heard a teenager got pregnant or a woman who just was simple not ready to be a mother for example someone who does not want to stop drinking or taking drugs every weekend. I got tired of hearing things like "It'll happen when it's your time." or "It'll happen in God's timing" from people who already had children. I thought to myself, "What makes you more worthy in God's eyes to have children than me?". In a way it still upsets me that society doesn't take infertility serious enough.
However, I am finally pregnant and I'm extremely happy about it. I just found out last Friday so I'm only between 2 and 3 weeks pregnant. I'm a little nervous about a miscarriage, but in generally I'm just anxious for the first appointment on March 12th to come where I can most likely hear the heartbeat for the first time. I'm also anxious to get further along so I can finally feel the baby inside me, but I know I got a long while to go before that happens.
I just started to go to a church and a woman's bible study (Even though I pretty much stopped believing). I know most people wait until around their 3rd month to start telling to tell people, but after 4 years of trying I was so happy so I told the women and the women's Bible study. Afterwards I found out another woman was trying to have a baby. She's a 46-year-old woman who just got married 2 years ago. I felt so bad because I know the pain. I started to cry when she started to cry after telling us the story. I told her that I was sorry and she told me I had nothing to be sorry about and that the baby is a miracle and I should be happy. However, I'm still sad that she is also going through the same thing I went through. I don't think any woman or mean who is ready to be a parent should have to go through infertility issues.
I know I may not sound very happy after writing all that, but I am. I'm extremely happy. I just want March 12th to get her for starters!