Never Seem to Measure Up
I have always been above average in height, now standing at almost 6"and slender. I have always stood out in a crowd. I always felt out of place because of it and even though I consider myself a fairly attractive person, I still feel like I don't measure upto others in comparison. I can be really shy depending on who I am dealing with and so I always try to act as though I am confident, but I really am not . Most of the time I worry about what others think of me and how I look, so I have this really compulsive habit these days of always looking myself in the mirror and judging myself. Sometimes I think I look good enough, sometimes I think I look terrible. I have real issues, but I feel that because I'm tall and stand out, I should be a confident person.
People constantly tell me I'm beautiful and I'm a wonderful, but then I don't see it most times. I need constant reminding or I will crumble. I have a terrible time speaking in public, and I could go on,and on about what I don't like about myself. I know a lot of women would kill to be my height, but I just wish I had the full confidence to go with it.