Anger

(I have since gotten over my anger and fears and I have finally chosen to follow the path that is within my heart. I'll just leave this up because there might be someone else out there who feels confused or angry about religion and they might be able to relate. Thanks everyone for their nice and helpful comments.)

 

My anger with me trying to convert to Christianity is strong and the only reason I seemed to even want to convert was out of pure fear. This fear is making me miserable with wanting to be a religion that I really feel fits me and my personal values. Only Christians go to Heaven and everyone else suffers for eternity in Hell. I can't accept that Buddists, Hindus, and the various other religious organizations are going to suffer. What if they live good lives? Just because they don't accept the Christian view of God they burn in hell? I'm sorry, but I can't accept that. I can't accept that being Gay is wrong and I feel that they deserve the right to marry. I feel controlled in Christianity and I feel like any little thing I did will cause me damnation. I feel wrong for not feeling a wonderful sense of peace in Church, but when I'm in nature I feel the divine in every aspect of it. I feel disgusting for being attracted to Paganism and I hear people telling me it's because the devil is trying to turn me away from the one true God. I feel that maybe organized religion can destroy some people's lifes as I feel that it is doing a good job in mine. I hear people tell me I should just stay Christian to be safe just in case there is a hell and this makes me even more angry. Why would God want me to be miserable with my life on earth? How can one religion be right for every person on the face of this planet? I'm just so angry and I'm so confused right now ..

Metanoia Metanoia
18-21, F
11 Responses Mar 15, 2010

Don't be angry. Anger is the manifestation of fear. I laugh sometimes at our predicament. Through careful searching of many different scriptures from various religions I find them all to be imperfect. Our guide books are highly contaminated with errors and contradictions. I find peace with my god comes only from within my heart. Know that god loves you always no matter what. He asks that we seek him and believe in his existence. We are are not meant to fully understand him. We have been cut off and cast out of his presences but not forgotten. Surely one day we will be invited back.

If man has eaten from the tree of knowledge and thus caused the state we find our self's in then I suspect somehow we have consumed that knowledge so that it no longer exists or maybe it now lies hidden in our bowels. I look all around and I search within but always I find no confirmation of a true correct path. It seems to me that the path to perfection, the path of righteousness is a treadmill that leads only to what is already known and does suit the purpose for which we were created. I sometimes feel we are meant to be lost or misguided so that we explore into the dark places and bring that which is hiding there into the light. Perhaps our pupose is to restore that which is evil to its proper place among the good thereby filling a void that exists with its absence

The furthest that all religions can see is the existence of a spiritual entity. So no religion can teach beyond that point. In every religion there is the essential truth and the non - essential casket in which this jewel lies. Believing in the Jewish book or in the Hindu book is non - essential. Circumstances change; the receptacle is different; but the central truth remains. The essentials being the same, the educated people of every community retain the essentials. If you ask a Christian what his essentials are, he should reply, "The teachings of Lord Jesus." Much of the rest is nonsense. But the nonsensical part is right; it forms the receptacle. The shell of the oyster is not attractive, but the pearl is within it. The Hindu will never attack the life of Jesus; he reverences the Sermon on the Mount. But how many Christians know or have heard of the teachings of the Hindu holy men? They remain in a fool's paradise. Before a small fraction of the world was converted, Christianity was divided into many creeds. That is the law of nature. Why take a single instrument from the great religious orchestra of the earth? Let the grand symphony go on. Be pure. Give up superstition and see the wonderful harmony of nature. Superstition gets the better of religion. All the religions are good, since the essentials are the same. Each man should have the perfect exercise of his individuality, but these individualities form a perfect whole. This marvelous condition is already in existence. Each creed has something to add to the wonderful structure.<br />
I pity the Hindu who does not see the beauty in Jesus Christ's character. I pity the Christian who does not reverence the Hindu Christ. The more a man sees of himself, the less he sees of his neighbors. Those that go about converting, who are very busy saving the souls of others, in many instances forget their own souls. I was asked by a lady why the women of India were not more elevated. It is in a great degree owing to the barbarous invaders through different ages; it is partly due to the people in India themselves. But our women are any day better than the ladies of this country who devotees of novels and balls. Where is the spirituality one would expect in a country which is so boastful of its civilisation? I have not found it. "Here" and "here - after" are words to frighten children. It is all "here". To live and move in God -- even here, even in this body! All self should go out; all superstition should be banished. Such men live in India. Where are such in this country? Your preachers speak against "dreamers". The people of this country would be better off if there were more "dreamers". If a man here followed literally the instruction of his Lord, he would be called a fanatic. There is a good deal of difference between dreaming and the brag of the nineteenth century. The bees look for the flowers. Open the lotus! The whole world is full of God and not of sin. Let us help each other. Let us love each other. A beautiful prayer of the Buddhist is: I bow down to all the saints; I bow down to all the prophets; I bow down to all the holy men and women all over the world!<br />
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~ Swami Vivekananda

Suppose Jesus of Nazareth was teaching, and a man came and told him, “What you teach is beautiful. I believe that it is the way to perfection, and I am ready to follow it; but I do not want to worship you as the only begotten Son of God.” What would be the answer of Jesus of Nazareth? <br />
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“Very well, brother, follow the ideal and advance in your own way. I do not care whether you give me the credit for the teaching or not... I only teach truth, and truth is nobody’s property, nobody’s patent truth. Truth is God Himself. Go forward. But what the disciples say nowadays is, “No matter whether you practise the teachings or not, do you give credit to the Man? If you credit the Master, you will be saved; if not there is no salvation for you.”<br />
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~ Swami Vivekananda

God more then one would not work.<br />
You sound so frustrated at the thought of the truth and free will given to mankind.<br />
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I can't really answer your question properly, but I'm know you want to know more.<br />
The Creator of your soul He is calling on you.<br />
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Best is pray to the God of your soul to give you the answer.<br />
He will answer clear as a bell and you will know it is from Him.<br />
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Anger and recieving a Savior to live in eternity in peace is a little hard to understand.<br />
Go with your heart.

I could seriously relate to this. I'm currently going through this right now and to be honest. I'm not as religious as the next person. I believe in being kind to others and having the freedom and individuality to choose what you believe in and it shouldn't mean that you should suffer because you choose something different. I believe in praying in different ways and that the way we treat others on some level should be considered as prayer so long as you're respecting the person you're speaking to. <br />
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I haven't been chaste and that shouldn't mean I am going to hell. <br />
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My family is very very spiritual and it makes it hard at times to bridge the gap. <br />
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What really gets me is that with all the developments in technology in the world we still judge the different paths and views in life. My only exception to this is when people use Religion to justify murder, and terrorism etc. <br />
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Thanks for posting this it has made me realize that I'm not alone and that I will find what I want soon. <br />
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Hope you find your spirituality soon.

sme here i do think sometimesifgod isso gr8 than why does hemake poeple suffer i have many christian friends they all say its to make well kinda strengthen ur faith and make sure ur faithful .tbh i dont queestin god thta much any more but somerimte i fell more christian than other ime i dont see how being gay id wrong and i agre on how come if he loves us o much than h e let s us go to hell, i went soul survivor it was amsin i sitll isten to the tunes now half the tim ei felt christian and the other half i didnt <br />
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sme here i do think sometimesifgod isso gr8 than why does hemake poeple suffer i have many christian friends they all say its to make well kinda strengthen ur faith and make sure ur faithful .tbh i dont queestin god thta much any more but somerimte i fell more christian than other ime i dont see how being gay id wrong and i agre on how come if he loves us o much than h e let s us go to hell, i went soul survivor it was amsin i sitll isten to the tunes now half the tim ei felt christian and the other half i didnt <br />
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hey. first i should tell u that religions like hinduism, buddhism, and some other are mainly based on idol worshiping. <br />
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abrahamic<br />
go through the above site and see the similarities b/w the religions. use the links in the site to understand the 3 major religions. although few of the things in it r not accurate but its good enough for a start. there r a lot of things common b/w the three religions, so try meeting some of ur friends who practice these religions and discus with them. i have had done a lot of debates and discussed a lot of things with my friends and on stage. and i tell u this is the best way to understand any religion..........

I'm not rejecting Zeitgeist, I just like to listen to facts and I know their facts on different Gods and them saying that those Gods are like Jesus in wrong. That link will show you that those supposed facts are wrong.

I have watched Zeitgeist and that movie is flawed with lies in the religion section http://thedevineevidence.com/jesus_similarities.html .. I do believe that their is a higher power, but the Christian concept of it deeply upsets and disturbs me.