I was amused when I taught High School that so many of my “normals” put so much effort into pretending to be different. Of course most of them would soon grow up and behave like the true normals they are. They would led uneventful, boring life’s just like there patents before them. They would embrace whatever religion there patents and neighbors believed in and fully accept as natural (YEA! OUR TEAM!) and right, what ever those around them believed in.
I have a right to be amused because I am the very different kind of person they tried to be but couldn’t. Worse, although normals often aspire and wish to be more like me they are hypocrites. If I am not careful to appear charming and just as interested in the same music, movies and sports as they are they may look closer.
The psychiatrist a the famous Menninger Clinic who were the first to see me, wrote the court that I should be given the maximum sentence possible because I am a “dangerous sociopath” that has no compassion for any other living thing, without a conscience and hiding a deep rage that could explode at any moment. Fortunately for everyone in that conference room I didn’t lose control because I had taken a stout pen from the desk of the head psychiatrist and still dream of shoveling that pen deep into the brain of everyone in that room. We all have are dreams.
What did happen was I let myself look confused and didn’t say a word. When I was sent back to court I charmed everyone as best as I could and got lucky with a liberal judge that put me on probation if I would go to college. “Yes Sir.”
I am now 65 and I still have that rage but I have never lost control. I have found ways to let off steam and not be noticed.
I want to tell young sociopaths to ignore the authoritarian critics like the psychiatrist at the Menninger Clinic. Society fears us because we are capable of making our own rules of right and wrong. While all societies create rules that protect society we can create rules that protect and conform to our indivial needs. Ha! Many great stories/movies glorify the strong indivial who stands up for themselves, but in reality they want to burn us at the stake.
I want to tell young sociopaths that they need to be very careful not to internalize normals sense of shame. I suspect it is hardest for females. The hypocrites of Christian/Jewish influence favor the male. He is a stud and she is a *****. Normal women are usually unable to escape the sense of shame that holds them down but sociopath females stand a chance to be as free as males if they chose to be proud of being unique.
I have survived to be an elder sociopath primary because I simply and truly like myself. I think that my heroes Friedrich Nietzsche and the German Colonel Otto Skorzeny would smile at what who I am, because I am me and not what others think I should be…DD