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I Am Psychic, Spiritual

Sadness

By: vewragid
Written on January 26th, 2013
Depression has taken a toll on me. It isn't a new experience to "see" things but now I am overwhelmed with the visions. There is no one I can talk to and even those who have experiences with gifts such as these and not at a higher level where I can go have my questions answered. Keeping these occurrences inside with no one to speak to has caused me to feel...defeated. I need to know my next course of action and yet I feel stuck as to where to proceed. I need understanding, I need guidance, but who do I turn to.

This will wear off but the "going through" portion really sucks. This mortality thing really gets the best of me at times. I'm sick of reminding myself to eat, which emotion should I portray around others when there is laughter involved, tears of happiness or should I play sad for the moment. Should I marry and have a child, because that seems to be what a woman is suppose to do at a certain age; or should I crusade with assisting others around the world. I know my parents will not be here much longer and honestly...they've been keeping my hold on this place.

I want to remain a positive person, the person that they raised me to be; but I know there is also a dark side, which is getting more difficult to control, the older I become, who is aching to be free. I have abilities, as I'm sure others have as well, but it will not suit this world if I have negative intentions. I need my support; my other half. We came here together a couple times before but we were made to walk alone. I miss him, but I know he wanted more of a normal life, something I am unwilling to give.

Maybe I'm depressed because no one understands me. Maybe it is because I do not know my next course of action...yet. Or maybe it is because I know my other half and we are unable to be together for reasons I can not disclose.

I miss my friend.
By: vewragid
Age: 31-35
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  • 7thPrime
    7thPrime

    In these pressing times (and there are many) we must remind ourselves of the good and our purpose. You have to remember that your benevolent presence impacts much more lives than your malevolent one. You are very dear friend to me. Someone who I cannot place a title upon because you are many things to me. I need your benevolence to suppress what is malevolent in me. I, too, am being pressed with things that I cannot speak to no one about. I walk around with a false facade-they cannot possibly comprehend if I brought it to the forefront. What's special about you is the fact that you do question. That you do, in a sense, perform self check ups to make sure you are doing right. The Father smiles upon you, this I know. We will get there together. Even if its a stumble and fumble...all that matters is that you make it to the endzone. Be strong. Stay vigilant. So many souls need your guidance. Including mines. And I shall afford you the same that you have afforded me.

    Feb 2
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    • vewragid
      vewragid

      Arigatou gozaimasu!

      Feb 2
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  • HEER7102
    HEER7102

    God knows best and you know i were depressed when I was 25, my son now 20 were then 2 years old, m husband was in a car accident and got brain damaged. I do not want to tell m story it is too long and you are to tired to read because nothing make sence. What i want to say to you is depression stops within, you are the only person who can stop it and the only way to do it is to find peace how...go on your knees talk to God and tell Him everything. Think now what you will wear tomorrow, put you close next to your bed and stand up tomorrow morning.

    It will not be easy, but easy is not an option, you will not let the darkens possess you, you will stand up and shine! Love yourself you need to find peace in yourself to be happy no person in the world can make you happy it comes from in you!

    Jan 27
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  • prontae
    prontae

    Thoughts of mind a battle with each day. Sun raise, it can lift us up ,yet the day torments the minds of things that we not do. Dark come yet cant sleep thoughts battle strong, i feel self feeling. I fight not prevail. Yet i see clear i desire be true myself, hoe how i say yet voice within fighti.g come out. Am lost never i take steps each mintue. I know yet i dont. Why why why, just hear soft empty world i feel lost search searching i know he hear and will shall help me prevail now am hurting not knowing. Thats my sorrow i shal win the battle am not along nor am i letting go. Figthing figthing that my key. I shall talk i know he listen i shall ovet come this sudden delay in my jouney. Keep talking keep knowing it will be open. Powerful spirit shall be giving hope is always there never gone between the nite n day it shall be clear u know how to seek the key. Keep thinking how it all came to be than the light shall be bright

    Jan 27
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