Nothing Fake About Me

Every single thing that I have done, said or written on EP has been the absolute truth.  Although some of my stories may sound contradicting, it is only because my life has been full of contradictions.  I have experienced every situation, and lived every hardship that I have told.  I am not looking for pity or wanting confirmation on any of my stories.  It is just the simple fact that I find writing about my life to be therapeutic.  This site has helped me to deal with a few demons that I have been struggling with for many years.  I can't afford actual therapy, and my husbands scoffs at it every time I mention it, so this site has been my only outlet for my feelings.  Although I am quite sure that there are those of you who have had a worse life than mine, it seems as though I have tasted a bit of just about every situation mentioned in most of the stories that others write on here. 

I ***** about my husband and children, but I love all of them dearly.  I'm just tired of being the one that makes all the compromises to keep everyone else happy, but would never tell any of them how they make me feel, because I wouldn't hurt any of them for no amount of money.  I took a vow to love, honor, and obey, and that is exactly what I will do till I don't have to anymore.  I am a mother, and I will help and protect my children with every ounce of life I have in me.  Don't mess with my kids, if you don't want to find out how far I will go to protect them, and they are fully grown and have lives of their own.  My grandchildren will be loved and protected with even more veracity than that.

I have lived through some crap in my life, but I am a survivor, and I will continue to survive till the good Lord takes me home.  I believe that each and every trial was to strengthen me for what was about to come my way.  I know that God watched over me through it all, and continues to watch over me today.  He has sent things my way to reinforce in me that he is working on me yet today.  I will never stop believing that I am a work in progress, and still have lessons to learn. 

So, if you take time to read any of my stories, rest in the fact that all are true.  I will never lie about anything on here, and the only time anything isn't factual is if I am answering a question containing a 'what if' scenario.  Just stating the facts as I know them to be true.

JAM