Bad Habit

When i was around 15-16 i'd picked up this bad habit of flicking money. I never thought i was stealing it as i always had the intention of giving it back. But i didn't realize then that what i was doing was wrong. I stole from my family, my 3 friends. Well very recently i gathered some courage to go and confess to what i did. My friends are all really upset with me and no one is ready to speak to me. Im a 19 year old lonely ****. And i hate my life. I hate the skin i live in.. But i'm not as bad as i was before.. I've improved and proud to say that i'm still improving. Im just looking for some love and my goal is to do anything that i can to help this world become a better place.