I Am Really Insecure
My Insecurity Takes Over My Life, Only To Completly Wreck It!!
By:
lunarstrings
Written on June 6th, 2011
from the moment i wake up the the moment i go to sleep everything that i say or every way i act like is based on my insecurity.
i have no social life and no freinds and even online friends i feel that i'm more and more prone to lose them overtime. this because i shut people out even without reason, my mind races in search for some little detail that turns their lack of trust in.. even if its not directly related to our relationship i keep looking for something that reveals they are bad people....even if they aren't. but i think this happens because i'm such a fragile person that i coudln't handle being any decived or hurt, still this approach to things is still damaging myself. i can't have healthy relationships. another thing that makes me feel really insecure is that i know i'm diferent from most. so i can't understand them they most people do. and i don't have the same events/stories/doubts/problems/atractions/likes/hates.....etc.. that they do. so this makes me feel inferior
does anyone have any suggestion? it's an irrational feeling tho so if u don't its ok lol
i have no social life and no freinds and even online friends i feel that i'm more and more prone to lose them overtime. this because i shut people out even without reason, my mind races in search for some little detail that turns their lack of trust in.. even if its not directly related to our relationship i keep looking for something that reveals they are bad people....even if they aren't. but i think this happens because i'm such a fragile person that i coudln't handle being any decived or hurt, still this approach to things is still damaging myself. i can't have healthy relationships. another thing that makes me feel really insecure is that i know i'm diferent from most. so i can't understand them they most people do. and i don't have the same events/stories/doubts/problems/atractions/likes/hates.....etc.. that they do. so this makes me feel inferior
does anyone have any suggestion? it's an irrational feeling tho so if u don't its ok lol