Forty and Failed

All that I do in life is work, eat and sleep, and be online.

I don't work in the career I studied for. In fact I'm in a dead end job. I make a lot but it's only temporary. And it's only been in the past 6 months.

I need out, I need a change, I can't stand this kind of life much longer. I want friends, family, a bf, a proper job, a house of my own, a future. All things most people my age have achieved. I have none of the above.

That's why I'm really sick of my life right now.

IndigoPeachblossom IndigoPeachblossom
36-40, F
10 Responses Mar 21, 2009

What hobbies had you try?

It's called a mid-life crisis and I'm there, too, except I just got dumped by my bf because he's broke and depressed and can't deal with a relationship right now. Whoopee.

I hope you find your way. You aren't alone and keep trying. Find the beauty in yourself and show the world who you are. Inner peace begins inside.

I know the feeling. I look around at people my own age and see how they have the house, the car, the family, while I have nothing, not even a gd job. The only jobs I can get are minimum wage and have no future. I did go to school, but I can't find a job in my chosen field because no one is willing to give me a chance.

i can definitely understand your concerns about security and someone to take care of you if you get sick. i've pretty much been the caretaker in my family, the go to gal but who's going to look after me when i need it? it's like i have nobody to fall back on, haven't for a very long time.

Me too..I may have well written this. Change doesn't happen as easily as we hope & try.

oh hun. Y know for some reason i feel a sense of promise when i read your story. I certainly don't think you've failed - cuz you KNOW you want a change. So if you keep giving a portion of your energy to looking at possibilities for that change, and don't stop, inevitably the pieces & doorways will shift and you'll get there.<br />
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It's people who aren't in touch with thmselves or try to numd it out who are in a spot. You'll be a-ok. Use some of that income to save, invest or help you in the future.<br />
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*hug* best of luck!

Sounds like my life, except I never trained for anything except for lab rat.

I am just worried for my future. I don't have any security nothing and nobody to fall back on should I get sick and unable to work. I'm still renting. I'm self employed and depend on my looks to get an income. This can't be like this forever, esp at my age. I feel like I've been left on the shelf and can feel awkward socially, like I have some kind of block and never know what is the right way to be, to feel, always so unsure of myself. <br />
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I just want some security for the future, including some people who could help look after me if I was sick.

Hang in there....if there is one constant to life, it is change...worry not how you rate compared to others...just take care of yourself...peace...SS