Its Almost A Year, Thought I Was OkIt's almost a year. I thought I was ok. I never cried because my husband was so sick for so long. Inside I was okay with it because he was free from his body which became a prison for him. Turns out I just pushed the grief down. Got a short lived boyfriend, thought I was happy. Then we broke up. The break up brought up all of these feelings that I pushed down. Then my cousin died, more grief. More pain. Now I am really going within facing the darkness. Forgiving myself.
Forgiving others. It was like the sun stopped shining. Now I am beginning to see it peek thru the clouds again.