Miss Him Sooooo Much

My new hubby passed away after a long 2 year battle with bowel cancer.. He died a month after our wedding and 3 days after his 25 bday.. Im lost. I thought because he was sick for a long time itd b easier but i was wrong... I miss him mostly in the morning thats wen it hits me... Another day without him.. I wake up run to the loo either vomit or have the runs, and feel shaky and cold all over. His family have treated me bad and have turned all money hungry... He would b so ashamed... I miss his cuddles, his kisses... But i don't miss the drs appointments, the cancer etc.. Im confused... Im only 25 yes but i have just married and now buried the love of my life :(
Meaowmeaow Meaowmeaow
22-25, F
4 Responses Dec 5, 2012

It is never easier. My husband died of cancer,November 15th. He was just diagnosed in June. Message me,if you would like to talk.

Hi missy
I am do sorry for he loss of your so young husband. My heart pours out to you and I had to write and tell you that. My husband just passed away Friday after a 3 year battle with blood cancer. He was diagnosed 2 months to the day we got married. Life can be so unfair. We are older than. I am 56 but it took me that long to find the one true love of my life. I have no idea how I can go on but I guess we have to find a way.
My thoughts are with you and I hope you find some peace.

I just lost my wife of 34 from type 1 diabetic complications. She too was (and will always be) the love of my life. I'm told the pain, confusion and anger you feel is normal. It sucks, but it's a normal part of the grieving process.

This is what has helped me so far:
1. Surround yourself with friends/family that love you and will support and protect you. That's all we can do.
2. Live in the present. Trying to think about what may happen will give you anxiety. Thinking about what was will only bring depression.
3. When something triggers a memory of your relationship, rather than regret that you won't be able to repeat, or make similar memories, change your perspective. Think about what you did together. The fun you had, and be thankful for the blessing that he was to you.

None of it is easy. But I'm told it does as you rediscover/define who you are without him. Don't be afraid to reach out to people you trust/respect for counsel. They can't understand what you're going through, but they may be able to help you process it.

Just my .02.

Be blessed lady.

I feel your pain. My husband had end stage renal disease, and you feel like you should be prepared, because it's pretty apparent what will happen, but it's still like hitting a brick wall at full speed when they're gone. it's like you knew it would happen someday, just never that day. i hope it gets better, but it really is hard losing the one you picked in life...the one you wanted to be with till you grew old.

I don't think anything can really prepare you for it.

My wife's death was sudden. We knew she was likely to die "early" because of statistics dealing with her disease, but we certainly didn't think it would be this early. I had 17 amazing years with her. And now I'm alone and have no idea how to deal with it.