I lost my husband of 17 years this past Feb 4th 2012! I didn't think I would live a week. Much less almost a year. We had the kind of love people look for all their life but few ever find. I am so lost without him. He was only fifty and I am only thiry eight. I get so loney sometimes I beg for god to take me too. If it wasn't for my daughter graduating this year I would have given up by now. I have no idea still how to start over.