Family Reject

It was my choice to separate myself from my family. I didn't like the sorts of things they did (including drugs, heavy drinking, and I didn't like their thoughts or opinions) but I always managed to at least get along with a few of them, if not all of them.

However, to be shunned or not told about my mother dying or being picked up for her funeral is simply inexcusable. They knew where I was living - they could have come to pick me up the night before (the funeral), they could have done something.

I feel horrible because of the predicament that I'm in - I'm broke, I feel alone, I feel like there is no one truly here for me. I just feel like giving up.

Dimples87 Dimples87
26-30, F
4 Responses Feb 26, 2009

There is so much hurt all around... I pray that you and your family will be able to forgive each other and mend your relations. I admire your strength for standing up for yourself and your beliefs, and the way they shut you out regarding your mother was unacceptable. Hopefully, there's some way to work it out for the future.

Thanks, Pro, coming from you that means a lot.

SISTER I KNOW IT MAYBE HARD BUT REMEMBER IT IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD AND YOU'RE NOT EXITING THE EARTH UNTIL THE FATHER SAYS SO. YOUR JOB IS NOT YET COMPLETED. YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO ALL AND AN ASPIRATION TO MANY. JUST SOMETIMES THERE ARE THINGS THAT ARE PUT IN OUR PATH TO MAKE US STRONGER THAN EVER BEFORE AND "THIS" WILL ENABLE YOU TO BE A GREATER HELP TO SOMEONE ELSE.WHEN IT FELS LIKE YOUR BACK IS UP AGAINST THE WALL GOD'S GOT YOUR BACK SO YOU WONT FALL.I,WAYNE, AND BRIAN WILL BE HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT THROUGH THICK AND THIN

I'm mad at myself because I feel disconnected. Like I can't grieve right because I wasn't there or something else.