Ever since i lost my first love of my life, nothing has been what it was. For those against it, its your own opinion. But i smoke weed almost everyday, when i can't get any i cant be happy. I always thinking about the regret of letting my love escape, how my life isnt going anywhere. How if i just left, nobody would know im gone. The only thing i've found that helps is weed. But i just want to be happy when im sober, but i can't i've tried alot. I think i need to find a new girl, someone that could take the old sad memories in my mind and fill them with new exciting ones. But i am the worst guy at getting girls, i mean i can talk to them, i can make them laugh, but no girl seems to like me, and i can't figure out why.