I Am Sad and Lonely

Sadness!

By: Eureka85

Written on October 21st, 2011

Here I am , sitting again in our office! Listening to my boss's songs played at her pc. Its a classical song, and its just remind me of some emotions that I barely hold it. I wanna cry right now, but I couldn't. My emotion is so mixed up. I feel sadness earlier, then became happy just by an invitation from my mother inlaw to sleep over at their house, and then I find myself sad again after the visit of my bossess daughter and grandson together with her boyfriend. I just felt how useless I am. Some other people, will start off playing with the litttle boy and start a conversation lightly. I feel so low. I cant really totally understand this feeling inside. Sometimes, it is so tiresome feeling this way. Everything is getting mixed up! I am so useless. What else I can do?! If ever I am going to rate a 100% between my sadness and happiness in each day, I could rate it 90% sadness and 10% happiness! I cant take this feeling anymore. I dont like it! Wanna spend the day out with many people but I couldn't. Please God, take me, take me! I might be useless this whole year that I am supposed to live. Maybe, yeah, I want to escape from this life and I am coward but I couldnt take putting other people to this miserable thinking I have!

By: Eureka85

Age: 22-25 , Female

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endofseptember

i understand. i watch other people live all the time, and feel pretty empty at the end of it all. i've felt like crying at least once at every job i ever had. its hard. i dont feel like a part of anything, ever. even if i am. its like a vase with flowers in it. some notice it, some dont =/

May 16, 2012
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HotDrumSticks

Being married or single is "It is what it is" Being content in both seasons of life is the key, Started out life single and then got married, after 29 years I found out I was going to be divorced, I did not want it but we have to live with the consequences of other people bad decisions.

Oct 25, 2011
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cjmithrandir

Hi =) Dont feel so down. I am going through an incredibly depressing time of my life. I have literally sat for 3 days straight in my room doing nothing. I dont want to talk to people, dont want to do anything but sit and be miserable. My girlfriend of 9 months broke up with me a few months ago, and is now seeing a friend of mine. It makes me so sad, but i truly love her, and want to see her happy.

Whats your story?

Oct 22, 2011
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HotDrumSticks

HEY THERE MIGHT BE TWO BOOKS YOU MIGHT WANT TO CHECK OUT, ONE IS BY JOYCE MYERS "BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND ' AND THE OTHER ONE IS BY NEIL T. ANDERSON CALLED "VICTORY OVER THE DARKNESS ' BOTH ARE GOOD READS, also maybe concider a general practice doctor, could be a ladies hormones thing or something else simple ?

Oct 21, 2011
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- Alwysblue
  Her feelings have NOTHING to do with ladies hormones and i am tired of hearing that as an excuse. I am dealing with the same issues and it has NOTHING to do with my hormones. Spend 30 years of your life single and with no happiness and then tell me if that is YOUR hormones!!!
  
  Oct 24, 2011
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Kabaltes

Jy kort n boere piel!!! Where you from?

Oct 21, 2011
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- Eureka85
  From Asia...
  
  Oct 23, 2011
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