I Wonder

I sit beside myself.
Heart as heavy as ever,
I wonder if I’ll always feel this way?
Like a stranger to myself,
I lost who I truly felt I was
When I lost you.
I feel more alone with people then I do with just me
Because then, at least I have my thoughts of you.
I replay your voice in my head
The way you said, “I love you”
Your laugh
Your cute little baby voice when you would say, “but babeee”
And then I cry
And I hate myself
And I wonder…
Will I always feel this way?

blackandwhitebro blackandwhitebro
22-25, F
Jan 31, 2013