It's HurtToday, suddenly I lose my grip. Losing my stand. Feels like the land where I stand is collapsing. Someone who I thought so close to me feels like stranger. Seems like out of reach.
I am asking myself. Who are we for all this time? Is it only me who really think we are close? Is it only me who think we know each other pretty good?
I felt left behind. Like nobody. I never know this is coming like this.
I think I am losing people around me, one by one.... I am afraid and insecure. All I can do now is crying and try to find a place in my heart where I can run and hide. Maybe I shouldn't leave my corner at the very first time. Maybe I really shouldn't let my heart opened....