Abused Hurt Sad Little Girl

HI EVERYONE THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IM TALKING ABOUT ANY OF THIS IT ALL STARTED IN 1992 WHEN I WAS 6 YRS OLD MY PARENTS ARE OVER 39 YRS OLDER THAN ME I HAVE 2 OLDER SISTERS AND A YOUNGER BROTHER I WAS THE CHILD WHO WOULD HELP OUT WHEN ASKED "THE GOOD CHILD" MY FIRST TIME BEING HURT WAS MY FATHER I HAD TO COUNT MONEY TO PAY THE BILLS I WAS IN KINDERGARTEN BTW I MISSED IT BY FIVE BUCKS HE TOLD ME I WAS STUPID AND DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING THIS MADE ME CRY THE YELLING AT ME CONTINUED UNTIL I TURNED 20 WHEN I MET AND MARRIED MY HUSBAND EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT WITH HIM UNTIL I TURNED 22 WHEN HE STARTED BEATING ME THE WORST INJURY HE CAUSED WAS MY BROKEN BROW BONE IT IS STILL PAINFUL HE HAS BEEN BEATING ME FOR ALMOST 4 YRS WE ARE STILL MARRIED AND WE LIVE WITH MY PARENTS AND BROTHER AND SISTERS IF ANYONE WANTS TO SAY ANYTHING TO ME PLZ DO IT WITHIN THE NEXT HOUR MY HUSBAND IS IN BED I HAVE TO TELL HIM I JOINED AND HE WILL PROBABLY MAKE ME GET OFF OF THIS
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4 Responses May 17, 2012

Hi I'm a witness to the madness I can tell you that you made your first step by talking about it. The next step is knowing that there is help out there and I can help you. I don't know your location but I know someone near by will help. We here in Stamford Ct have a Rachel Challenge program. My challenge for you today is to stop being someone target. You are human and a beautiful person get away from the madness. If you have to leave everything behind do so and run there's help, You can start over.

You need to leave ASAP, but I know u are terrified. But this is about u staying alive. When a person's abusive they will always be! If you bring kids in the equation, it will effect them! What do you have to loose???? He doesn't need to stay with your parents. Get him out, or call the police to remove him!

Welcome, maybe you could also talk to his mom and him. She could be the mediator, and let him know you don't want to be with him. Whatever you do make sure their is someone there with you in case he gets violent.

You need to take care of YOURSELF first . How will you look after your mom if you are put in hospital by this excuse of a man you are unfortunately married to ? I don't know where you are in the world, but there are plenty of organisations who will help you with everything including your mom, so look them up in your area. If it is difficult to get away , there must be a time when for instance, you go to the local store or something, but instead of going there go to a friend's, or the police even . If you report him for domestic violence he will be taken away anyhow, and that will give you some time to sort something out. I am here for a chat if you need someone to unload to alright...

my dear, from a very painful personal experience - your only way is to get out from your husbad and think about your family once again - how come they do either not notice or even accept him beating you up?<br />
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Yours loving him is a deceitful feeling...actually, it is a psychological phenomenon, like a abductee falling in love with their kidnapper. <br />
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If you stay with that man and your family, this will seriously impact your own mental health as well. If you have kinds, you will spoil their lives living with such man. <br />
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get out and forget all about that ****. you are still very young. gather all your strenghts and go...getting consolation and support online may help in the short term, but doesn't solve your problem. Or do you do enjoy being sad abused little girl forever?!

:-( ...you seem to be a person with a big heart, caring about your mum so much. In your situation, you will definitely need a support group in your area. if you can make your husband leave, that woudl give you the possibility care for your mom and escape the violence. do you have a job right now? if not, I think it will help you a lot to start seek one...