Who Should I Be?

I change often. My mood swings are severe.
I can cry a minute and be okay the next.
Nowadays, numbness is my happiness.
I don't like who I am. I can't control my emotions. I am wrong. I am right.
I do things because I want to look better in the eyes of others.
But don't I hate others?
I want to close out all other thoughts and just listen to who I am.
But I can't because I live in society. And I know in what way I must appear.
I hate myself. Or perhaps I don't even know myself.
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Dec 14, 2012