The Uncertainty

I a way I feel a bit like a junkie "the legal kind if there is such a thing" I am sad because I feel the drugs I take from my Dr have messed with my body

I have this dark depression and low moods, last night alcohol kept me sane, two double whiskeys and I was feeling more at peace.

the drugs I take are what they give cancer patients to suppress hormones but I don't have cancer

the meds last 12 weeks but wek 1 - 4 you feel lifeless as your energy levels go, you just want to sleep at week 10 it wears off and your back to square one.

I don't know if its the meds going it or rocky hormone levels or not eating much

I feel sad because I can't each much without gaining weight, I cant smoke, I cant enjoy life

Lastnight I felt like really messed up, thinking about how iv possibly messed my body u for good and how I may have to rely on meds for the rest of my days.
sarahbethuk sarahbethuk
26-30, F
Feb 16, 2013