Endless Tears


To cry alone.  It is better then the rain.


At least then no one can see my hurt.


It seems the cold of winter comes through to the center of my soul so often.


It comes more then once a year.



The sadness in my heart; it is too much sometimes.


To think that I am forever destined to be locked inside my own expectations and the expectations of others is the very thought that enslaves my mind.


I can’t turn my back on them.  To do that is to leave my entire life.  Then I would have no one, no one.


Yet, to keep on the same road is to end my dreams.  I do not know how I could let them go.  Still, I don’t know quite how to capture them.


If only there were a way to understand the things that are in the distance.  If only we could see the end of the path.  Right now though, I can’t even see in front of me.  I can’t even see my own road.



Those who live their lives dreaming of the future can never live in the present.

Those who live in the present cannot dream of the future.


And those who cannot find their road, are lost.



Will I ever have a moment in the sunlight, without living in the shadows?


Only if the clouds leave.  Only when the clouds leave.  They have to leave, they will!


When they do, I will be standing in the sunlight,




and I will have no more tears to cry.


stormynightsky stormynightsky
22-25, F
11 Responses Apr 13, 2009

This reminded me of midle school . Sad , But then happy ending .. (:

Like your story because I can relate. Brought tears to my eyes, and even though we havent met I feel like I know you.. because I know someone like you.. me.

very touching it sounds just like me.

Dont let your dreams down...... dreams are those which never let you sleep......<br />
i can see a lot of pain in your story..... but nothing is in our control......<br />
"You can close your eyes to the things,, you dont want to see but you cant control your heart to the things you dont want to feel"<br />
sometimes it seems that all roads to life are lost... but still then there are paths... try searching them...

You write poetry again it seems. I know I have said it before but its true!<br />
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Its a wonderful piece! <br />
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give poetry a try would you?

Thanks you guys.....Sometimes dreams are the only thing we have....far a time at least.

Dreaming......dreams are amazing visions and ideas for our lives, and to have the courage to try to realise them is the 1st step....then you have to live them which is scary, intense, free! It is not an easy thing...you have to make sacrifices, get rid of people from your life who hold you down, remove all the shackles that suppress you from your dreams! Then your own bondage you have to deal with, the fears and thoughts of what is 'the norm' in your head. And dreams give birth to new dreams...the fact you have dreams and know them is great, hold onto them tightly, hold them close, let no one take away their shining, glistening...or keep them secret till you realise them....<br />
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sometimes its good to play safe and sometimes we need to break free and make our own road.But if you are uncertain bout what u want then u can always give your self more time to mature to make that decision.Best of luck ! ! Dream,hope and be thankful for all the good in your life .

Thanks Brimliner. I hadn't planned it as that, but you're right I guess it does fit. :D

:) Thanks so much for recommending it!

Sad story...happy ending though :) <br />
Another one that i love :P