But That Doesn't Equate To MeannessI shall endeavour to always be straight with you. But I will also try to be polite, & not just because it's the right thing to do but because I want to!
I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I suppose I feel a little... errr... guilty, or something for my recent story entitled "Here's the thing"
I don't regret it. I stand firm by what I said. But I was cross when I wrote it & although I've received a lot of support from my friends, some people who don't know me that well were a tad... shocked? ...disappointed? I'm not sure how they'd put it, & I of course wouldn't want to put words in their mouths.
Truth is I can be a smidgen sarcastic & perhaps cuttingly too the point at times. But the smiley twirly sonnet that you've always seen is me also. These two sides of my personality meld to form moi.
I have always been rather shy on Ep. I'm not very good at letting people in. I'm secretive, perhaps a little sly, & private to the point that I don't believe that any one person knows me in my entirety. But then a while ago Ediez knocked a hole in the wall I had built around myself & just walked straight in, front & centre. She said something along the lines of "You should vent. That's what Ep is for". So simple, but something in my mind just clicked. She was right. I shouldn't be afraid to be in public who I am in private.
But as for the aforementioned story. My Emmereffer (JoeyPFox) says it reads like I'm trying to justify my choices when I shouldn't have to. When I Don't have to... But I wrote it in utter exasperation at the supposed *fans* who think I can be bullied or coerced into adding them. I did not write that story because I think I'm better than anyone. & certainly not to ward decent interesting witty people away.
But when I say I don't wish to add anyone else at present & the person replies with "but you added that girl Punk1n recently. I saw it in my feed... Why not me?" Then I am going to get miffed. I did get miffed!
But anyway, the point. I'm not mean. I'm just me. People seem to either get me or they don't. There's little in the way of middle ground, & I'm really very okay with that.
However, there you have it. I've expunged, & I'll just skip away now.