It's a Tough Road, But I Know It Is the Best

 I'm Catholic, and even a lot of my Catholic aquaintances find me a bit conservative in terms of my morality, but my faith is the source of all joy for me. Of course I struggle (who doesn't in today's world?), but when I fall I try not to give into despair. 

Basically the only thing I will go for outside of marriage is snuggling. Anything more than that, and I am walking on very thin ice. Because I struggle with depression so much I often long for more, but when I give in and go for it it tears me up inside & out. The important thing is for me to keep recognizing my need for emotional intimacy and not mistaking it for being, well, horny!

I am seriously thinking of joining a secular institute, where members make the three vows of chastity, poverty and obedience but live in the world with jobs just like anyone else. It is exciting but scary too.

moonsnail moonsnail
26-30, F
4 Responses Jan 11, 2009

with a little common sense, every body must figure out that your belief is right, this the nature of human being.
A man wants something just for him (something never used by anybody)
So keep struggling, I'he man who'll appreciate your sacrifice, just wait the Godly reward

I admire you for being a strong young woman which is hard sometimes in this world we live in.

Thanks for the encouragement. Quite a few people take offense, though I haven't completely figured out why yet. I'm not telling them what to do, just laying out what my boundaries are. Even my current-semi-ex-once-and-future-disappeared-guyfriend would get mad.

you're doing what you believe in, nothing wrong with that! good luck! :)