It's a Tough Road, But I Know It Is the Best
I'm Catholic, and even a lot of my Catholic aquaintances find me a bit conservative in terms of my morality, but my faith is the source of all joy for me. Of course I struggle (who doesn't in today's world?), but when I fall I try not to give into despair.
Basically the only thing I will go for outside of marriage is snuggling. Anything more than that, and I am walking on very thin ice. Because I struggle with depression so much I often long for more, but when I give in and go for it it tears me up inside & out. The important thing is for me to keep recognizing my need for emotional intimacy and not mistaking it for being, well, horny!
I am seriously thinking of joining a secular institute, where members make the three vows of chastity, poverty and obedience but live in the world with jobs just like anyone else. It is exciting but scary too.