I Am Soooo Scared

ok! so i had unprotected sex with my boyfriend who i was going out with for about 2 weeks. yes that may make me sound like a sl*g or a sl*t but i was so happy around him and i begged him for it, i am 15 he was 49, that may make him sound like a ********* but he wasn't ( i had several of my 'connections' do a background check on him. we had unprotected sex quite a few times. i took the morning after pill on 2 occasions but worked it out, there were 2 days that i wasn't protected for by the morning after pill. I have to wait 2-3 more weeks before i will know for definite, i don't want to be pregnant but i know i would never be able to have an abortion so i would keep it if i were. in the past i have been suicidal and have been self-harming for the past 1-2 years. i'm scared i won't be able to bring up a child properly, i am scared for the fact the results may be positive :( but i also know that what i did was my fault and yes i am scared but as long as i have made the decision that i 100% believe in then i will be happy, it may be hard work for a 15 year old who is in her final year and completing exams but i know i will be happier in the long run x so yes i am so scared of being pregnant but i also know what my decision is if i am and have accepted it.

btw me and the guy have broken up due to one of my so called friends telling the school, who told social services, who told the police, therefore forcing us to break up x
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18-21, F
Nov 29, 2012