for the past few months i have been really low... i can be really happy and enjoying my everyday life... then it will hit me that oneday i wont be here, and none of this will ever matter... i know it sounds stupid and people disagree with me... but i do want to be here forever... i believe that after i die... there will be nothing waiting for me... i wont have thoughts or feelings... i wont have anything and that scares me so much, at times i cant breathe, i cant sleep, and i just think what is the point because soon i wont be here so why bother... why cant i just stay where i am... i need help to understand all this so i can be my happy self again... i miss being me.
pifflelicious pifflelicious
18-21, F
9 Responses Dec 2, 2007

those of you who have thought about or fear dieing, you are robbing yourself of the basic joys of living and most of you have so many years ahead of you than behind you.. Wondering if life will continue to go on. as most of your know, death is a part of living and we try to find peace in the fact that they are in a better place. Get involved wit family and friends. Go out there and enjoy life., if you fear death, then live like you are going to and find out how much fun you will have every day

Hi, <br />
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I was laying in bed just thinking and this is something that has come to mind.<br />
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The whole notion of death, the fact that it can happen at anytime and that i will be completely along, no one however dear to me will be able to come to my aid at that time. No emergency services however good at their job will be able to help.<br />
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No more life, thinking, experiencing, meeting people, learning, laughing, Hugs and more.<br />
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On one side im thinking and as others have said, you dont know when youre going to go so make the most of youre life, do the things youve always wanted to, make a different, leave some sort of legacy or even just good memories when people remember you.<br />
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Food for thought for me.<br />
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I'm 32 and am also prone to sporadic bouts of scaring myself witless about the prospect of death...<br />
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I completely take the point of some of the earlier posts about living life to the full - but as others here may agree - there is no getting round the fact that one day you will die. I sometimes find this fact extremely distressing to the point of making me feel physically sick. <br />
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However, just to know that there are other people out there who have those same fears actually helps...we are all in it together if you like! I also like to keep the following two lines close to mind in troubling times...<br />
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1 - 'Death is the admission price of Life', ergo the fact that you are even in a position to die means that you have been granted and experienced the greatest gift of all - life.<br />
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2 - 'Do not go gentle into that good night' by Dylan Thomas - an amazing poem(!) that inspires me to stand up straight and say 'F*** It! Live life and stare down the Grim reaper when he decides my times up!<br />
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My thoughts are with everyone who get distressed about this subject - it can be hard to take..

blimey so young to worry wished i,d worried about being /getting old when i was 40 i would have done a lot more with my life like retire at 40 or 50,so for the younger ones get your finger out and start doing things,theres me being scared of dying at 60

I was searching the internet for anyone who felt the same way as I do and I came across this site. <br />
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I first felt the way that Keeley feels when I was 11 years old. As with Freebird21 the feeling drifts away, but when it comes over me it is the most dreadful, overwhelming clarity that one day I just won't exist and nothing that I have felt, thought, touched or loved will matter...<br />
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Now I'm 40 and the times that I have this feeling are normally in the early hours of the morning, when I'm in bed and it suddenly washes over me in waves, making me feel physically sick and I feel as if I can't breathe. <br />
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It is very difficult to speak to anyone about this, because the feeling of complete awareness and finality are so difficult to put into written or spoken words. It is a whole body feeling and awareness of non existence.<br />
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I can recommend reading Dr. Sam Parnia's book - "What Happens When we die". Dr. Sam Parnia is a Doctor and Scientist and has been carrying out research into what happens when we physically die. There are reports of people that have had experiences (written in his book) that have changed my perception of death, but I would urge anyone feeling the way that I do, to read his book. It has seriously helped the way that I feel and I hope that it will help you.<br />
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Take care...

Hi...I know exactly what you mean....For me it comes and goes...The first time I felt it I was 15...then again this year.<br />
I discribe it as a very clear,very real understanding that we are going to die. I think we see it without all the clutter that most people live their lives with. We see it in all its clarity...<br />
I have asked other people if they have ever felt this and have only encountered one...that is, perhaps, why most people disagree with you. they haven't been there so they don't understand. They are unaware...I hope with you it comes and goes too. I hope that these thoughts and feeling go away soon for you, and don't come back for a long time....ignorance is indeed bliss...

I can definately relate to Keeley...when I was 15 years old I was very hypersensitive to the thought of dying. It was so clear to me how little time we really had... I was extreamly scared. I didn't tell anyone and lived with it alone. Keeley, if you have a trusted adult that you can talk to please tell them what you have told us....perhaps there is someone you can talk to or something you can do to make these thoughts less sensitive to you....I know, firsthand, how extreamly scary this is to you.<br />
My thoughts are with you.

My Name Is Keeley And Im Only 14! I Know How Yu Feel As Ive Changed Alot As One Minute Im Happy And Enjoying Myself And The Next Im Crying Because Im Scared Of Dying! Ive Been Talking To Myself Alot And Worked Out Tha Im Not Afraid Ov The Way Im Going To Die But How Im Going To Miss Everything Such As My Family And Friends And Just The General Feeling Of Being Alive And Knowing That I Exist. I Really Do Need Help As Its Eating Me Up Inside And Its Ruining My Day To Day Life! HELPPPP!

You know the what the most beautiful thing about being a mortal is? <br />
We are doomed. We can't even be sure about the next day. And that makes everything even more enjoyable. <br />
Embrace death and deep inside you'll find life.<br />
Death doesn't rob life of its 'point'. It is rather what gives it its meaning. <br />
Its all about today. If death awaits us tomorrow, what is it we would like to leave behind? How will others remember me? Will I be satisfied about me life? Did I live well? Did I love well...?<br />
Answer those and you'll automatically get your answer. <br />
We are all with you.