Yeah. That's Right. I Was Scared Celibate...After years of avoiding, ignoring, dismissing and suppressing my desires for closeness, warmth and intimacy with another human—in my case, a man—I realize now, my fears morphed into neglect a long time ago. I've spent too many years neglecting, depriving and stifling my own basic and instinctual human need for affection, tenderness and passion. I'm thinking now, I'm not so scared of getting hurt, anymore. It's the regret that chews away at me, now. Now, I'm scared my time to experience new adventures, warm feelings, sensuality, romance—or even love—is running out.
To be continued... maybe.
flyinfish 51-55, F 0 Sep 20, 2012