Danger Of Close Proximity
Well tonight I spoke with my exbf, Scott about the pain and anger towards him I've been feeling. He didn't seem worried or even that he really cared how I felt really. I encouraged him to tell me how he felt after hearing that I felt he had given up on us and I was mad and dissappointed. He just countered and said he didn't give up on us just unsure what his future would be and didn't want to hang on when there was a possibility that he'd be living in another state. He couldn't handle saying we're still together when there's a big question mark in our futures. Now, just recently he says there's a possibility that he could have his small business in our state again and that he may be back by December. It's never been a real posibility until now and I'm not sure how it would be after thinking that he and I would be seperated by the distance in the future. It definitely scares me to think that we could get back together because I'm just not sure if we'd be good for one another....it's weird to think after all this time and heartbreak he could come back to stay. It's been a really tough 8 months without him and eventhough I miss and love him I don't want to be with him the same way it was. I have gotten used to him being there and I'm here. Is this strange? I guess it just makes me feel uneasy not knowing for sure where I stand in his life, literally.